Search results for query: Ritual abuse

I do but only b/c i own a pitbull; felf very unsafe before then. Rituals/punishments seem to follow the pain inside; feeling bad about myself, when i hear a christian sermon (a lot since my dad & step mom watch it), sometimes im not sure why they come. The process that anthony gave me doesnt...

Redirecting yourself to a healthy/nurturing activity and distraction til the urges pass is a better tool than immersing yourself in the memory on the heels of a vivid nightmare. You also did not play the memory all the way through to the part where you are/became safe... when these abuses were...

Chava said what I was going to post here, "Writing about your traumas in detail, right after a nightmare, and also posting over and over without any wish for challenge but only validation of abuse reenactment, might in itself be over-exposure for you right now...as in triggering." I read your...

Im sorry if theres a lot of typos, im shaking so bad, just woke up so cant see straight yet and when i woke up i jerked my head hard and now my neck is killing me. But i hadnt had the nightmare since i had been on the site until i fell asleep wednesday night cuz someone was talking to me about...

I would completely agree So maybe learn about how cults work first; or while using @anthony 's awesome negitive core beliefs article. I watch A LOT of documentries on cults; the one that most resembles theirs is The Children Of God renamed The Family; the only main difference is they were to...

I was raised in a satanic cult from ages 3 - 12. It was horrific. I was also severely abused at home. I used to be where you are now. My therapist has literally been a life saver. The self harm got way out of control. The first thing my T did was to enroll me in DBT. I did the DBT and saw...

@joeylittle, i thought of this on the way home, to sorta explain a little better now that I am at home. Think of hitting my triggers like someone pushing your buttons. You control your reaction or lack thereof, right? I havent learned how to do that and im no where close. My mind does this...

Yes, my therapist brought it up. I am willing to have sex with anyone, BUT not all the time. I tried to be gay once, obviously that failed, but being as heterosexual, i will have sexual with any guy, but if the guys want girls, if there are times im self doing rituals or if im tailspinning...

Freak! Him, not you. I have control issues that I never knew i had before my current almost 7 yrs in therapy. I didnt know because before i would say these last few months, id let people run all over me and still be doing everything in my abily to help them (no boundries) BUT when it comes to...

...custody of the State, I had no parent, basically. Why was I the first out of all my friends to find out people were being abused due to ritual abuse? I'm scared to find out why I related to that story so well, all the drawings and kids. I risk my life talking about it, popularity. ect ect...

You see this is where I feel really terrible, I did act out a few times around children in my early 20's. I got pregnant with my first baby when I was 26 and I remember during the pregnancy fearing social services would take him from me if they found out what a terrible person I am. Then I had...

...it is the best that is out there. Maybe it could help you: Dead Link Removed The title is Becoming Yourself. Overcoming Mind Control and Ritual Abuse, by Alison Miller. She has written at least two books and I believe this title is especially also meant for survivors. My borderline mother did...

He has (I talked about this in the "What is complex PTSD), actually I asked due to naming 2 "identities"; Allie who was the prostitute & Brandy whom was the one that was cut, beaten, forced to kill small animals, basically the rest; basically how I could say it didnt happen to me, it happened to...

...all of us) is try to keep moving, which is what you're doing. Has your current therapist talked about D.I.D with you? Many of the cult/ritual abuse situations with programming/drugging of the child can result in that diagnosis. I know people on this site, with similar pasts. Not are...

:) you made me smile! I hope one day I can see the stars and just be able to breathe instead of my mind racing, my mind constantly looking for the "plan" for the million bad senarios that can happen. I just want to be calm and be who I think I am inside without the abuse, the "cult" mentality...