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Search results for query: Ritual abuse

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    Abuser Used Alcohol To Control Me.

    When I was a child and the victim of ritual and sexual abuse at the hands of a small group of Satanists, they used some chemical that soaked a rag. They'd hold the smelly wet rag over my face until I'd black out, and then have their way with me. It always left me feeling nauseous and dizzy and...
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    A Place To Speak

    ...Perhaps Art therapy wasn't enough for you to gain a complete understanding of your past. There are trauma specialist who understand ritual abuse, cult abuse, and D.I.D., perhaps if you found one they could help. http://ra-info.org/faqs/ will help explain about ritual abuse. There are many...
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    Dae Want To Smear Bodily Fluids As An Adult?

    Were you exposed to a form of ritual abuse or raised within a cult? There are others like you. The pain is beyond words.:( This is not your fault. I don't judge you at all.:hug: I'm glad you posted.:happy:
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    Angry And Triggered By Everything

    ...at the store annoy me, the deli person ignored me, the cashier was too slow. I'm spinning. I've been dealing with memories lately of ritual abuse, along with the rigid control my parents had over every aspect of my life. I think there should be rules for the world to follow. I understand...
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    This Body

    Oh, also my own childhood growing up in a cult and surviving ritual abuse.
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    This Body

    ...and that is the best we have to go on. Any therapist that doesn't go off of the DSM and treats patients off of opinions is trash! NOT! Ask the many even documentries on cult survivors and ritual abuse survivors that are DOCUMENTED. Trash therapists. There are MUCH better ines out there.
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    This Body

    ...to PTSD, it is the way you have been receiving treatment." We have been told that any dissociative disorder is extremely rare and that ritual abuse is "a fairy tale." We are not getting better, we have been told, because we are not following the therapist's professional course of treatments...
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    This Body

    ...me, my therapist says that the term "that's unbelievable" applies. People don't seem to want to believe that these things, such as ritual abuse, happens. People, as a whole, seem to want to blind themselves to such things. This, obviously, should exclude therapists but in my experience...
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    This Body

    ...delusions. I have been BADLY mis-diagnosed and drugged for years, and I know how awful it is. I encourage you to learn about DID, ritual abuse, structural dissociation, etc.... These sites may help http://ra-info.org/faqs/ http://did-research.org/index.html There are experts...
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    This Body

    Rizeho here, i understand checking out but must be present to follow orders. Mine was ritual abuse, it was a cult, and as a kid I made up identities and they had names. My current therapist pointed out how those names usually mirror our own some or are part of our trauma (like what they called...
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    This Body

    @ajewu May I ask if you have been diagnosed and treated for DID or BPD or both? I get a 'ritual abuse' vibe from what you describe. I only ask b/c I wonder if you are getting the kind of help you need.
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    Psychic Medium To 'speak' To Dead Sex Offender??

    Orion, I don't think it's nuts at all, I have the same feeling about my mother who abused me although she isn't dead, so I worry she'll show up some day. Perhaps meditation would help, have you looked into banishing rituals? It's not for everyone but perhaps it would help you feel cleansed of...
  13. lostforgottensoul

    Other Kidnapped, Returned And Alone

    I exist. I wasnt technically kidnapped and due to that a lot of issues I do and did have no one gets, such as Stolkholm advised by my therapist. I was being held captive, my step dad & mom headed a cult and I experienced sadisic ritual sexual torture, was made to do the unthinkable, and...
  14. Recovery4Me

    When Your Abuser-parent Is Near The Throws Of Death

    @lostforgottensoul Thank you for the extra special share. Your words rang true inside of me as I felt deep empathy for your personal journey. (((hugs))) You are indeed quite an courageous, sensitive as well as an intelligent woman. I do feel some sadness for you but am extremely grateful to...
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    Started Processing A Memory, Therapist Called It Rape And It Freaked Me Out

    Im the opposite. I can talk about details monotoned, seperated from it, but have trouble calling it sadistic ritual abuse or "horrible". Today, after my therapist and i spoke about what happened last week, he said "your mom and step dad are now both dead" and i was talking about how the...
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    Started Processing A Memory, Therapist Called It Rape And It Freaked Me Out

    The weird thing is, I can now (after years of therapy) name what other things happened to me as satanic ritual abuse, but I struggle with talking about details. This event I can talk about in detail, but not name.
  17. futurefocussed

    Is It Possible That The Flashbacks Are Something Else?

    Hope... I don't even know where to start, but I do know what it is like to doubt the memories that you have. This is the part of my story that I do think is relevant to you. When I was 14 my mind started to make delusions, things that I thought happened that every fiber in my being believed...
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    Csa-----is It Possible To Value Your Body?

    ...which leaves more room for different perspecctives and potential for shifting core beliefs. have u heard of teal swan? she is a csa /ritual abuse survivor and now healer, i hav her book "shadows before dawn" which is about finding self acceptance and self love after trauma, i def reccommend
  19. lostforgottensoul

    Post Traumatic Growth ?

    I would but its not how this is written, anywhere that ive found. Take this for that was posted above: Now, what im drawing into importantce is "result of crisis/disaster". Thats how this entire concept reads. So i say to myself "where i am today on all of this compared to where i would...
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    Desperate For Peace

    I can relate to what you are experiencing with your dad, my dad was a bona fide sadist and he got so much pleasure out of hurting people. Us kids were his special prey that he ritually abused on a regular basis. But I thought I had loved him and was on his side sadly and used and manipulated and...
  21. lostforgottensoul

    When A Narcissist Is 'good'

    Yes! This went on for me for years. I wasnt budging at all about my parents being right right right, always, so he just started to casully talk about his family, just like he was changing the subject and just talking, though the subject wasnt really changed and he wasnt just talking, and gosh...
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    Physical Damage/ongoing Problems Due To Sra

    exceptional resource....worth everyones time to read thank you
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    Physical Damage/ongoing Problems Due To Sra

    There are many people that experience ritual abuse! So much so there is an entire website dedicated to it: Ritual Abuse - RA Info Or simply the main page: Home - RA Info
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    Physical Damage/ongoing Problems Due To Sra

    I am as well though I say "a cult" as I cant seem to say SRA. I do as well. Cuts and burns inside. I had a hard time telling my therapist but did eventually and only had a total of 2 GYN precedure due to this and fear. No OB/GYN has said anything yet. But i know the fear well! Also was...
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    Physical Damage/ongoing Problems Due To Sra

    I am a survivor of satanic ritual abuse. I have quite a lot of physical damage/scarring throughout my whole body. I feel unable to discuss these issues with my therapist, or any nurses, doctors, suppory workers etc. And definitely not friends. I have difficulty with my bladder. I have no...
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