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@Rizen - I wish I could be in a good mood all the time too!! Every morning recently I wake feeling sadness, and the sadness is in my body. I lay there and feel it for a while so I don't bury it and compound things, but thank God for our walks. They do change our bodies and the way we feel...

Hold on. Know these feelings will pass. The more you know about PTSD, the less terrifying and incomprehensible it will be. I am not sure why you thought it would be gone after a year so that is why I say you must learn more about PTSD and how it effects your body and brain so you can find ways...

When you are in fight or flight, your Neocortex brain goes dark so to speak. That's a fact. You cannot access your normal thought and language abilities then so know that your intelligence is still there - mighty and strong!! It's just got a blanket over it temporarily. It's a bummer though - I...

Today was tough. I walked a couple miles with errands but had like a full body migraine (no eye area pain - just the rest). If it doesn't rain tomorrow, I have a huge walk planned going to my T's and back. Assuming I am not sick again and can do it.

It will be a great sign of health to discontinue with this T and not waste anymore time talking to yourself and paying someone for it.

I feel sick like I am filled with a toxic milkshake. Shooting pains in the right side of my brain. Got out this morning to my support group though. That's good. Talked to family member this weekend. Typical reaction with me with temporary loss of sense of well being. Tomorrow will be better...

Walked 50 minutes. Beautiful day. A little overcast now. People barbecuing. Hungry. Did weights before. Trying to get physically in best shape. Going to first rock concert in 40 years Tuesday!!

Hooray! Enjoy the good days or good moments. When they pass, know they will come again.

I don't take meds anymore and deal with the feelings and the processing and releasing of them thru somatic therapies. It is night and day the change in my well being. I do think the years of adrenaline and cortisol floods during the sustained period of childhood abuse altered my system...

Tired of inside not reflecting outside world. Inner state of emergency too often. Though it happens less and less, when it gets intense - the dichotomy - and I respond to something little as if it's a big deal, I feel insane - not in touch with reality. I hate that. It's exhausting and I can...

I walked a half hour yesterday and the day before a lot more. I walked and ran intervals and irritated a previously torn muscle so I am grounded today. Don't want to re-tear. I will do weights today though I want to run because it's easier to stand still then - as someone wrote recently as to...

Let go. The flow is not going your way with these people.

I am happy. I was shocked a family member read a fun little thing I wrote and emailed me such positive things. How rare. Not that I have revised expectations of family. Beautiful out. Walked and body feels good and healthy. Taking shower first thing versus last is better for my sense of...

IMO it is absurd to say PTSD (or any condition) can never be cured unless whoever is saying that is God. That said, it is without a doubt profoundly difficult to live with and healing can be slow, but the difference between the old days when I wasn't treated, and nowadays is night and day...

I am so sorry for what you've been thru. Have you read Peter Levine's Waking the Tiger? If you haven't, I think you would find it very helpful. A support group would be fantastic, and so would releasing the trauma energy that is in your body. This site is a fantastic source of information and...

I feel oodles better. (Anyone remember Gidget?) Feel highly dynamic. If I don't change what I do, nothing much changes. Feel happy. Sadness undercurrent way down low.

Yesterday I walked an hour and a half in glorious sunshine. I am outside now but GI distress earlier wiped me out. I might eat something and try a slow short walk. See what I have in me. Need the right music on my iPod. Feel sad but don't want to hear sad music or angry music. Happy music seems...

I am sorry @Junebug. You have to take care please. It is a terrible stress to have a loved one with cancer. I am exhausted as I often am. I am down a bit due to baby burn out. I cannot afford to push myself the way I did all my life. It doesn't work anymore. It is hard to be gentle. I feel sad...

The best therapy I ever had only lasted six months. The healing I got from it has lasted to this day. I don't see any harm in your going to therapy, only the possibility of help.

You have got to take a break. I am afraid you are in burn out or will burn out with all that you do. But no one can stop you but you. I burned out eight years ago. I have never fully recovered my physical health. I hope you get rest. It's easier to have perspective then. I mean lousy things...

@Kalbi - For years I felt like I was living inside some kind of vinyl capsule or that my senses were covered in thick plastic so I couldn't really feel anything. I would have an idea of the feeling but it would be so far removed, it was like a faded echo of the real thing. I couldn't smell much...

Maya Angelo wrote a memoir - I think it was I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings - where she writes about not talking at all for years when she was a little girl. It's a beautiful book and you might identify with her.

It sounds maybe like encapsulated parts, frozen parts, are coming thru and that's exciting! Something inside shifted. Maybe parts are integrating. I have had that. I find it encouraging. Welcome!

Did you work on anything artistically or with some hobby or anything you could play up? Like maybe you took time to write a book or something where it looks like you were productive and going after a goal. You may know that it's a skewed presentation of what really happened but they don't...

Maybe you are having problems trusting your experience is real. Trusting what others say is real. Maybe you feel numb and/or not in your body a lot and you understandably want to be able to feel what is real and true or how can you feel alive. Did people doubt your reality growing up...