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@Rose White You wrote: what my dad did to me was like only 10% of what Grandpa did. I doubt that CSA damage could be calculated by percentages. And what happened to them in their past doesn't change anything for you nor me. Still we are all emotionally connected in some way. If they were...

I’ve suffered from non-contact sexual abuse by my father, which I first recalled at age 4. And yet, I doubt that he was sexually aroused when viewing naked children or photos. At social gatherings, I would notice my father repeatedly glancing at attractive young women — yet, he showed no...

I’ve had various reasons for wanting to disconnect from my body — my excessive weight-gain during childhood was shamed — yet my fear of feeling my own feelings has been perhaps the worst of it. No body awareness — no painful emotional awareness. My first vivid recall of non-contact CSA by my...

This is very nice! I really like the way you've applied the blue lines to soften the darker lines and shapes.

My non-contact CSA by my father was never acceptable, not at age 4 nor during my later adulthood nor at any age. I never complied - I just hadn’t the means to leave my father’s house. At age 24, I actually thought my sexual desensitization and lack of sexual feeling was my greatest...

I'm wondering if your request that AI responses with an image might involve an object within an environment of some kind. To me, this type of visual thinking seems to be related to physics, as if it were matter and matter's behavior. I tend to see this as a movement where a fixed image might not...

I’m wondering if AI will ever be capable of explaining anything that can’t be clearly explained in words. My own thought processing often involves wordless thinking if, this might be a form of ‘visual thinking. ' Going a step beyond this ‘visual thinking’ might be ‘intuitive thought’ though, I...

These drawings remind me of the many drones currently being reported and photographed in our night skies. Though I haven’t seen anything unusual lately myself - these mysterious objects certainly have occupied my mind. I suspect that many are spherical black orbs that contain hidden...

This sketch I drew several days ago. When I visualize objects in my mind like this, they rarely have any shadows and perhaps, because I won’t be seeing these imaginary objects as having any genuine light source projected onto them. My visualizations will often appear as if defused within a...

I think some people have attempted to break through this limited experience barrier using drugs. However, I would prefer having a more organized brain. :)

I like how this artist relates her nine color swatches to the others and to the actual flower itself. The making of traditional color charts is painfully boring. ere she is documenting the flower’s local hues observed in light yet, the shadow colors are equally important. Often only two shadow...

Interesting question. During my childhood, it seemed so disappointing to me that there weren’t more colors than there were. I think that colors are actually only variations in wave lengths, but then, I’m not a scientist. When I visualize colors within my mind they will circle around much like...

I find the abundance of negative empty space surrounding these figures interesting. This reminds me of how I’ve sometimes felt when attending social gatherings, if, not wanting to hide myself in the closet. For some reason, I’ll experience myself as not wanting to disturb the negative empty...

Fun, yes!! Original artworks? - more like, customized artworks to order. Though I was likely born with some artistic ability, I’ve struggled to better my drawing and painting skills over the years. I’ve also learned that this practice involves the development of a personal visual language...

This charcoal drawing I drew from life while glancing back and forth between this foam-head and my drawing (see my photo). I wasn’t trying to copy anything exactly and yet, I was repeatedly glancing back and forth at this foam-head, but why. I think I was actually drawing a collections of...

Picasso was a master of division using line! He also recognized the dynamics of negative space while many artists tend to ignore it. When there's no awareness of this negative space there's likely a weak composition. A drawing composed of only descriptive line would likely be unreadable to a...

When I’m drawing a very structured object, such as, a human head or complex animal structure, such as a horse, even when drawn entirely from my imagination, I will often begin with a few light guide lines. This helps me to establish the object’s general perspective, size and placement on the...

I drew these two charcoal drawings about 40 years ago from a posed life-model. From about age 18 to more recent years, my life drawing skills really haven't improved all that much beyond developing stronger, bolder and freer line-making. On the other-hand, the artworks that I've drawn using...

Very interesting use of materials, colors, shapes and textures! This clearly illustrates the limitations we experience when creating using only paint or pen on a 2-dimensional canvas or paper surface.

These two quick life drawings depict my initial scanning of the life-model positioned in front of me. Though these drawings might appear as mere scribbles - to me, these are both excellent examples of my initial note-taking of the subject. One key element in practicing this drawing skill has...

This model was merely a friend of the artist who was then holding weekly drawing sessions in her garage. She wasn't a pro. Most of these poses were either brief warm-up gesture drawings, if 2 minutes or less. Then we'd likely do either a few 10 or 20 minute poses. Then sometimes a 40 minute...

This charcoal life drawing I did decades ago. What's interesting to me is the discomfort this model seemed to convey within her pose. Her chest seemed restricted, as if she feared taking a full breath. The front of her neck seemed to thicken, as if she were holding back any vocalization of her...

Years ago, I would often make many small graphite drawings of imaginary faces and horses. Here I’ve merged a few of these faces together using photoshop. Only the posed model at the lower right - with the misplaced eye - was drawn from life. I generally apply many thin light ‘search lines’...

This damaging CSA mind-body experience during infancy maybe true, yet, I had likely acquired far more disturbing, if confusing mind-body experiences, beyond any CSA fondling during infancy. For example, I had repeatedly experienced blockages in my airways during my whooping cough illness -...

I must also ask why my father has been assumed to be my only CSA suspect. Anyway, here are my thoughts in regards to my father's sexual abuse of me. I have only two vivid childhood memories of CSA that were only recalled at age 24. Beginning with my first frightening memory of seeing my...