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I'm note sure I'm understanding your question about dissociative fugue - however, I’ve had a few episodes of dissociative amnesia related to my UFO close encounters yet never any significance change in my location beyond a distance of 100 feet at most. Because I’ve often experienced gaps in my...

I drew this digital sketch from my imagination a decade ago. During my childhood, I never received any art instruction beyond public school which wasn’t much. Early on, I learned some of basic drawing skills by copying Disney cartoon animation characters. Some of Disney’s influence might still...

@Rose White Thanks, Then you likely understand how confusing my life experiences have been for me. I know I’m not the only one having these UFO experiences. Eight other blood-relatives had once told me they had at least one UFO sighting. Only my sister had once told me about her very...

@Rose White I’ve been describing my paranormal experiences as accurately as I can, over the past two decades while realizing that much of it isn’t understandable. However, many of these experiences do seem to overlap, if related with vague CSA memories. I’ve been trying to sort out the...

Well to some extent I might be experiencing other baddies in addition to my father. As for the 'black boxes' apparently they are very real. I suspect I’ve always struggled with confusing and frightening similarities between my CSA, my past sleep-paralysis and paranormal experiences. Often...

I suspect that my father mental illness was partly neurobiological, in that, he seemed to suffer from body sensations that wouldn’t upset most people. His wife would sometimes clip his fingernail and toenails while he would scream as if, this sensation was causing him extreme pain. He refused to...

I have no memory of ever seeing my father cum nor of him ever touching me inappropriately. Rarely was I ever touched by either parent or anyone else though my brother often randomly physically assaulted me - yet again not sexually until his late teens. As a toddler, I might have gotten a few...

I can’t recall any abuse before age 3 and a half but only my brother’s physical assaults. My first vivid memory of my father’s sexual abuse was at age 4. As far as I know he wasn’t touching me but merely fondling his erection in front of me. I can recall being very confused as to why he wasn’t...

I'm also more frightened of people than entities, these days. People can inflict far more injuries. I just wish I could sense the dangers before they appear, as well. Walking away from these abusers takes an immense inner-strength and courage, as I’m sure you must know. As a child...

This is a complex subject with no easy answers for me. Did the paranormal event occur before or after my trauma? My short answer is no. Here’s why… my CSA trauma began at age 4, my older brother was terrorizing me by age 3, my near death illness during infancy might have traumatized me, then my...

When I had drawn this piece, a few months after my brain tumor resection in 2018 - I wasn’t pleased with it at all. I then saw it as only my failed attempt at drawing a more realistic figure. What had actually transpired was much softer, moody and atmospheric.

This artwork reminds me of a group of people socially mingling with warmth and excitement …not fearful, nor guarded nor withdrawn, as I’ve often experienced in social situations. Gives me a nice feeling!

Very uplifting to my spirit, joyful in its feeling and expression! Makes me smile! I was thinking about art one day when I then realized that the energy and feeling that I experience when looking at art actually comes from within myself. The artwork when observed enables me to experience my...

If there is a dialog between this fake voice and the person being called, could family members create a private code word that only they would know to speak over the phone to confirm the caller's true identity? Just a thought.

I would start with soft vine charcoal sticks. These sticks are easy to erase with a soft cotton rag or kneaded eraser. A soft wooden 2B charcoal pencil will provide fine lines, if desired. Yet, fine details are difficult to achieve with charcoal so, don’t frustrate yourself. This media has its...

I've most likely never been extremely physically fit though, I did a good amount of daily physical work caring for horses for 40 years. Yet that activity ended three decades ago. Too much sitting these days. My BPM also normally drops down quickly, from about 70 or 80 to about 50 within a...

Seems like my BPM readings have always been red flaged. The medical technicians monitoring my EKG tests always display a jaw dropping look of amazement. My last EKG was 11 months ago. Anymore, I try to warn these technicians before-hand that my EKG readings won't be normal. I've been getting...

My slow bpm readings have been fairly consistent throughout my life. Yet, now my average bpm at rest is even slower. For the past several months, I’ve been following my bpm readings (24/7) on my smartwatch. When sleeping my bpm average is now 48, when awake and sitting, reading, my bpm average...

I totally agree ... it's a learning experience. And loving it is so important! This silencing of the inner critic has been a huge challenge for me and other artists - I still struggle with it and likely always will. Because my artwork has been mostly imaginary, with no right nor wrong way of...

I doubt that the brain’s processing of words could ever willfully be slowed down to synchronize with the person’s mouth and tongue movements when speaking. Was this lack of a synchronization caused by your TBI. I think, I acquired developmental brain damage early in my life. I was told I was...

This life-long reading disability does make one believe they are 'hopelessly broken' ...it's a day after day difficulty that never goes away. Some have say to me that, this difficulty shouldn't bother me once I'm beyond high school yet, they are so wrong. Everyday presents a challenge of some...

My visual perception in regards to the shape of words and letters, either printed or written, is very accurate. When I misspell a word or don’t know its spelling I often realize it immediately. My problem is that I’ll substitute one word for another. For example, I might type the word ‘made’...

These words with confusing similarities, I can relate to as well, except that my confusion more often occurs with the visual aspects of the word when viewing them on the printed page. However, when ypu mentioned your confusion using 'im' with 'impossible' and 'important' here the 'im' suggests...

I’m very sorry to hear about this problem with your nervous system. Losing your sight and disrupting your functions beyond your control. I hope you are receiving the best medical care available. I think the reading and writing therapists and specialists have only scratched the tip of the...

For me as well, the reading of words are easier to understand when the letters are connected. I knew something was wrong with me in first or second grade yet, my teachers kept telling me I wasn't trying hard enough. How was I to try any harder. I wasn't officially diagnosed until age 35. Not...