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Ugh! I'm feeling an uneasy sense of fear. I tried the Tibetan bowl music last night, I think it helped to calm me a bit. I'm so tired of these feelings that invade my day to day life. I have to push and push. It's like my brain is broken, the things that used to come just naturally and didnt...

I'm feeling very tired emotionally and physically. I think I've been in partial shut down mode. I just got tired. fighting so hard for so long, I got wore out, feeling numb, then a lot of anxiety. I'm scared, school starts soon and I'm still wondering if I'm going to be able to handle it...

I'm feeling tired. I keep telling my therapist this. I'm concerned when school starts I won't be able to keep up. By thursday, I'm usually wore out. Still waiting to see if my disability is going to be reapproved, as I cannot work due to the ptsd, anxiety and agoraphobia, plus its the only...

@BlackbirdSinging, If had been asked to do the same thing at this time, I would have a very difficult time as well. It is hard when you feel like your a burdern and not deserving of love. Yet I think you can do it. Smile, your a gift on here , with your words. :) And that's a pretty good...

Today has been rough. I'm feeling bound up, nervous and full of worry. I told myself , don't think about tomorrow or the next day or the next, but it's difficult for me. Had a daymare, and the anxiety in the dream was so bad it woke me up and it felt like it had tripled. Hoping to catch my...

@Junebug, And that puts a smile on my face :)

@Junebug, I like your words that "say" its ok. It's also ok to struggle. I've been telling myself this a lot lately and I'm finding it helps. and that doesn't mean I'm bad or and entirely hopeless person. :)@All I Just love this thread! Some words can mean so much to hear. Small...

@KwanYingirl, I just put the Tibetan music on my phone via pandora. I like it. I'm going to use this at bedtime to help me sleep, hopefully more calm when I try. Thank you :)

I've had 5 days of yuck! Today my T came and it was a bit rough. I have a hard time self advocating and telling people no. Feeling very tired and it's only Wednesday. I hope tomorrow is a breakthrough day, as I need it so much. It's taking all I have to press on through the day, the kids...

It's getting close to bedtime and i'm so anxious, I hate this. I just want to for once, lay down a rest peacefully. Waking up with the shakes and rushing around is wearing me down too. Fearful dreading

@purgemeofthepain :) Yes it is of some comfort knowing we're not alone in this area. You are correct , I haven't found many like us either, but i'm sure they are there. Yep, you have a pal in this one :) As awful as it is. Be strong as well and keep posting. Maybe someone has some baby...

I've been staying up later and later, so that when I try to go to bed I might sleep better. I'm in and out of my room , smoking back in the bedroom up again with anxiety and worried about having dreams. I have them but can't remember them always, except when I wake up coming out of one.. in...

@purgemeofthepain You are so correct. I to have ended up homebound. To many triggers and memories out there. If i had left this town in the beginning, I dont think it would have gotten this bad. I'm lonely and scared. This is not a good place . I hope others reading this will not allow it...

@shimmerz I'm happy to hear that I am making sense. The mind can get so jumbled at times, it's hard to find the words. I still need work on the fear of bedtime, I try to ignore it, but I get very anxious and restless, more or less on how well I can self talk. The dreams can be bothersome too...

I'm already feeling anxious about my therapy session tomorrow. He can be so harsh. I don't understand why he gets upset at me because i'm having symptoms and just can't do what he says to do. Doesn't he know being able to do these things take time? Stressing so bad over it

I think i'm not going to post for a bit until I can get my words to come out right. I'm down on me for being like this and I have some serious work to do in so many area's. I got knocked off key about a year ago and have to catch my balance again , taking it 1 thing at a time. :(

@shimmerz I think my kids sleeping in my room is a tough situation. They to had trauma and they need to be close to me. I do take naps during the day if I can. I lay down and work on relaxing techniques and at times I doze off and rest other time I doze off and jump up. During the night when...

I'm thinking it's imperative that I learn to love myself, accept myself. How? How does one get to that place where they feel worthy and that I do matter?

I have Ptsd, anxiety and i'm also agoraphobic. I struggle daily . I have friends that I won't let come see me. I can't let them see me like this. It's really hard because of the way I used to be and the way I am now. (which, I'm having a hard time accepting myself and very good a beating...

Crying again. I had to schedule my kids dental appts and that was overwhelming. Something so simple as a phone call can be so difficult Down Unsure Scared Confused Tired

I'm feeling scared and am shaking. This fear that has come over me is extremely bothersome. I've been doing everything I can to distract myself from it and it still won't back down. I'm am sick of it! , I keep thinking what if I give out, not because I want to, but that it just happens from...

@Smile Thank you

I think tomorrow I'll start bagging up the clothes the kids have grown out of and donate them. It's the bagging up part that seems to be such a chore, but they are piled up in the corner of my room. Wish me luck, and if I just get one bag done, that's a positive :)

@gizmo, I try to reach to people as well. In that area it's difficult, as I don't have much support from family. So I decided to look elsewhere , like on here and other online area's. I do have friends, but I won't let them see me like this. It's been 4ys since the trauma, and here I am...

@anni, You cracked me up. So funny because I can sooo relate! :) I love this. Keep it coming. The other day I told my therapist, I just love it when the anxiety and ptsd are holding hands and skipping through my head. :) I made myself laugh. Not sure what he thought. LOL!