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To make a long story short, I grew up with religious narcissists for parents. My mother has manipulated me my entire life and it’s been only recently that I found out I’ve had PTSD since I was 3 or 4 and developed C-PTSD at 5. When I was 28, I got retraumatized by someone simply from being...

Thanks for the advice @Sideways I’ve always been really hard on myself for slipping up, so this has managed to make me feel better.

Yeah whenever I get triggered, I go from successful mindfulness to full on maladaptive behaviors that keep me from having a still mind. I think I’m gonna discuss this in therapy with my next session. Yeah I’ve only done it twice and then got triggered and so stopped doing it. I’ll look into...

I’ve been triggered these past few weeks and have been having somatic responses in my body. Ever since I was a teenager, I would lie in my bed and just doomscroll all day. This would be in response to my somatic responses because I did not know what was happening or why I felt the way I did. I...

It is very triggering, especially since I’ve been gaslit to oblivion by my own parents. Having my own grandmother take her narcissistic, abusive daughter’s side is a slap in the face. I hope she dies realizing her first grandchild wants nothing to do with her. I’ve also been having somatic...

Last week I had two family members tell me that I had to make up with another member for basically hinting at the fact that I don’t want to talk to them. I denied wanting to wish them a happy birthday, because they deny my trauma existing despite only being part of a fraction of my life. I am...

What is your definition of “ignoring it”? Because my version of ignoring something is to not do anything at all and that has never helped me in my situation.

For the past several years, I have struggled with emotional numbness and loss of pleasure in a multitude of activities. Because of this, I have been diagnosed with Major Depression before I received a diagnosis for C-PTSD. When I was a small child I felt happiness and pleasure in my...

How I’d react when I discover the perpetrator who started it all.

I was 4, I was f*cking 4 years old and had PTSD. That is one of the worst outcomes you would come to realize about yourself within your life.

Seriously, imagine realizing you may have been looked at like this and that same person thought “Damn I’d tap that”.

Ignore the grammar. I vented without bothering to double check.

Throughout my whole life I’ve had developmental trauma since I was 4 at most. That quickly turned into Complex-PTSD once I turned 5 years old. My grandmother, on my mother’s side, has only been part of my life for three years out of the three decades I’ve lived due to her living halfway across...

This has been my experience when I was a small child. I remember having dreams at one point that felt too real to be dreams, but too peculiar to be memories. I question if I was going through derealization at the time. Whether or not these were foggy, repressed memories; if I was just...

After years of struggling, I finally managed to upkeep my apartment. Before then I was a total wreck and unable to function, but now that I’m receiving mental help I’ve been functioning a lot better.

My uncle had a falling out with my narcissistic parents for wanting to keep my grandmother from visiting his children. My grandma flew all the way from South Africa and doesn’t get to spend time with her grandkids that often. Being the narcissist that mother was, she wanted to go on vacation...

Yes, precisely.

I have a ton of tea bags at home. Do you drink anything specific? I already journal through here and read a lot on psychoeducation. So I feel like doing more of that after therapy would overwhelm me. Plus I already intellectualize my trauma a lot and I’m trying to find more balance by not...

My stomach hurts from eating too much.

I finished having a session with my therapist yesterday and ate more than usual. We have been discussing how food is a numbing agent for my emotions and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this. My stomach really hurts and I want to stop but I can’t seem to.

I’ve stopped taking my mood stabilizers because I don’t experience mania, so I didn’t believe I needed them. A psychiatrist diagnosed me with BP2, as well as PTSD and DPDR. I do know that I have major depressive episodes, but that is different from bipolar disorder. I’ve read that mood...

It’s really opening my eyes. It’s made me realize I’ve had complex-PTSD since I was 5.

I’m reading Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving and it mentioned this forum in the book.

I found out about this forum through a book I’m reading. I honestly don’t know where I’d be without my books.

That doesn’t surprise me, but my mother doesn’t have PTSD. She’s a narcissist with actual symptoms of NPD and parentified me by sharing her childish fears instead doing her due diligence of researching the validity of SRA claims. She got her ideas from media and from books with unsubstantiated...