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Riding by the border wall. Yes, the land of the free.

Marc Marquez

I am sorry to hear that. Maybe talking to a marriage counselor would help. I know what a struggle it is with a non supportive spouse, I had one. Mine seemed to have a vested interest in me not improving. Once we separated I got into therapy. It has been a hard road but I have made progress...

It is hard for us to find balance. I have the same problem not saying no and I am not used to saying no yet. If I was married I would try to talk to my spouse about it. If they know what you are trying to do they can be supportive of it.

I’m feeling lazy. I have been very low energy lately. I did vacuum and mop the floors. I did walk down town and back but otherwise non mobile.

A couple acquisitions for the house.

I have done a few emdr sessions and I found them helpful. I did not have any memories come back during the sessions but afterwards some things came back. I am going to be doing more in the near future.

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I’ tired but not as tired as yesterday. I just finished 2 days of psychological testing. Specifically they were looking for PTSD, CPTSD, covert narcissistic abuse and autism. I t feels like all were confirmed by the questions I was asked and my answers. I have to wait several weeks for the...

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How did it go? I have my evaluation this week and I am curious how it will go. I have a ton of stuff going on too. Specifically we are confirming PTSD and CPTSD, long term covert narcissistic abuse (my therapist pointed this out and I had never considered it) and autism. Autism was pointed...

I have had to take sleep meds for 30 years. A couple months ago I was able to stop and I am sleeping better than ever. I think my nervous system is finally starting to calm. I have been off sleep meds for 2 months now. If I can’t sleep I focus on my breathing. By doing this I don’t seek out...

At times when it all seems too much I go to extreme thinking. Words like never usually tip me off and I have to do a reality check on my thinking. Another thing I have to remind myself of is that every major upheaval in my life has lead to a new and better life that I could not imagine before...

I purchased a new chair and the boss claimed it right away. The second is a photo of a window I walk by almost everyday, I never noticed.

A relaxing Saturday morning breakfast, eggs, potatoes and sausage. Lots of coffee.

Control the things you can to build a better foundation of healthy habits. Things like exercise, fresh air, nature and diet. Value yourself by respecting yourself and how you live. You are worth it. This will build a stronger future to deal with the harder stuff.

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AMERIKA

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I struggle with the same thing. I have gone as far as perfecting my New Zealand citizenship. I have decided moving when my head isn’t right isn’t a good idea sine such a move would certainly add more stress in the short term and quite frankly, I really don’t know who I am. I am not a TV...

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I am hanging in there. I took ketamine Wednesday night. I do this about once a week in an effort to calm my nervous system. Yesterday I woke up feeling funky. I went for a bicycle ride and my heart rate was much higher than usual. Today I have been dizzy all day. I slept well and long last...