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I don't know if I can handle it anymore. It hurts so much it doesn't seem worth it anymore. I just want to find a place where it can just be me and a dog and f*ck friends people are to fickle to trust. I don't get how people do it.

When you have a backslide or your symptoms show. I've been disowned for slipping back into BPD thinking and my PTSD trauma responses or a bipolar manic or depressive episode.

I keep being burned by people who are supposedly my friends but they leave they all leave. What's the point in trusting people if they inevitably end up abandoned you? I have had so many friends try to help me they view me as something to be fixed like I'm damaged and then I try and I open up...

I have been trying to open up about it but it feels so embarrassing to say it out loud. She's a really good doctor but I hate the fact I don't know who it was and the feelings I had for him. What if she doesn't understand?

I have been in IOP and trying to process some recently recovered memories from my childhood (ages 15 and under) in which I remembered a man getting into bed with me and doing things a few times. I can't remember his face but I remember the smell of cigarettes, his beard scratching my face and...

I've been enjoying Unsweetened lemonade by Amelie Farren.

I don't tbh. I try to be all "my family would miss me and my friends would be sad" but I don't have friends anymore and my family would probably be better off without me burdening them. Success is being stable being able to grow in life. I'm supposed to have a house or apartment instead I'm...

I was doing so well for a few months. I've been repressing my negativity and trying to be happy. Every damn day I smile all day and try to be nice and it doesn't matter. Every good thing I do is expected and every mistake is scrutinized. I don't want to be alive. I don't care about being alone...

I posted on here before about how I only feel useful during sex and lately I've learned about Anhedonia which seems to be pretty accurate in describing how I feel If I'm understanding it right. Half the time I feel everything so intensely that I can't calm down or function at all and then...

I have been but it doesn't seem to make any difference.

Hi I have been struggling with CPTSD and I have been struggling with the core belief that my only real use is being a sexual object. I was assaulted in a nightclub when I was 22 (I'm 31 now) and I don't remember much except for freezing and the feeling of him grabbing my arm and throwing me...

Hi, I'm a 31 year old transgender woman who's diagnosed with CPTSD, bipolar, borderline personality disorder as well as general anxiety. I'm trying to put my life back together after growing up with an abusive dad. My first bf was 23 when I was 15, a SA at 21, my family saying it was my fault...