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@Lost in the Woods thanks for your response.
ah think me saying treatment resistant has been misunderstood. I was referring to another responder saying they use gratitude and I was saying I do this too but this treatment does not work.
I'm hurting enough, engaging in therapy twice per week...
I just came back form therapy. the therapist is annoying and often says things that I feel just make matters worse.
I told her I was angry that the terrorisation I experienced as child has left an aspect of me terrified of being close to people because this aspect of me believes people who get...
@Survivor3 Thanks for the response. Means a lot because it's hard to find people who get it. I was a writer. What do you do, if you dont mind sharing here? Did you manage to keep your creativity all the way through these decades?
Unsure what you mean by offering my self...I do a lot of...
Hello
I've been suicidal for three years, everyday, non stop and had two attempts. I have no family, no friends, no partner, no support networks, no career. I don't have anything to tether me to this reality. The getting 'out there' chat sounds like bullshit when you life is like this, no one...
The End We Start From
Was bloody amazing. Good Brit movie about a woman giving birth during a flood in London. It's quite heavy going but without the Hollywood guns, bombs and gore
Think it varies according to the season I am in and capacity. Today it looked like this:
Listening,
spending time connecting with my body through some stretching and movement, paying attention to what it's telling me e.g yesterday I could not be in some postures and movements for so long...
some aspects of me have been feeling sadness, hopelessness, loss, pointlessness
other aspects self hatred
other aspects possibility, preferring that word over hope
think one of the things that I recognise was an issue is having a return of guilt feelings when I stated needs or said no, which was something I used to have very strongly as a young person until I worked on it quite a bit in recovery. Then it came back with a vengeance during the early stages...
Was just looking at the OP and checking myself. Was not focusing on the blaming this other person, my questions was about knowing what was what to help me understand the experience I am having post the relationship. It feels like this has turned into me trying to blame someone and label just for...
I hear that. I don't think I am not not focused on me. I am doing a lot of work looking at my codependence, the aspects of me that were so activated at this time that made it hard to hold boundaries, the relationship with the deceased parent
And
I am also trying to understand what was...
@Friday I think I would define it simply as the other person thinking that I am an extension of them, there to serve them and certainly not to disturb their perception of themselves. I felt like I experienced this with my ex
@Friday
I was concerned about posting this because I feared the assumption that I am using the terms for, "I don't like you, or had a difficult connection with you, or you didn't do what I wanted' etc
I'm mainly thinking this because of the way that I feel post the interaction, and I have felt...
How does one know when a relationship was someone covertly narcissistic or ‘just’ unhealthy/toxic dynamic?
I was in a relationship for 5 months that has left me feeling absolutely confused, unsure about what really happened, no self esteem, unable to recognise who I am etc
The trouble is...
@Friday
Thanks for this Friday and the distinction between contributing and causal. Witnessing what you’ve been/are dealing with, that is much. Wishing you continued healing
Sense in my case it might be more causal as it in informs the way I react/respond and/or perhaps the situations I choose...
thinking about that eye test and reading the thread title as, 'how do your mummy issues play out', rather than what it said, 'how do your memory issues play out'
Can anyone relate to this and/or have any experience navigating this? I feel like I go through these cycles working really hard to create my dreams, getting to a good enough place and before I get steady there, I blow it up, whether directly or the way I react/respond to circumstance etc
I...
I'm learning how to drive. I had a really good lesson. I haven't told anyone in my life. I've been wanting to do something that is just for me not to be seen kind of thing
I'm grateful for a secure and peaceful home
I'm grateful for the aspect of me taking me to do driving lessons
I'm grateful for the progress made today
I'm grateful for my knowledge of herbal medicine to support my body, mind, soul and spirit
I'm grateful for being able to get outside
I'm...