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We are here :) what you want to talk about? You can join in on other threads if you want...lots of people talking about this n that!

Oh, I'm so glad :) we are so vulnerable when we are in this place, and "trust" is something I've never had a wealth of :wtf:

There really is normalcy in knowing that others struggle with this same thing! It seems clear by all the responses here that NONE of us are really loving having ptsd and since we are hiding it so much, WHY would people think we are trying to get attention??? {eye roll}

Argh! Tillybee you sure hit the nail on the head! :( this last weekend my mom was talking with my aunt about a grand kid that was going to counseling, my mom says "yeah, it's so in nowadays. I just don't get it." OMgosh! Who would want to go to the T all the time and work on this crap? Really...

I am master at it :( but it's also what people expect of me, especially my family, and when I'm not that way, they get all ticked off at me like I'm faking having a problem!! The message I get from others is that I'm making it up, or being dramatic if I'm upset, depressed or frightened, so I...

Oh dharmagirl that just breaks my heart! Did it work out so you could continue seeing your T?

When my kids were little we used to call this kind of day, "watching mind-boggling amount of TV"...it's amazing how Disney movies can be a lovely restful distraction :) especially the ones that have singing musical parts! Just a thought ;) keep hanging on! Sally sue

AND I'm finding it so hard to focus on anything but this, so I'm struggling to get anything done! AND I want to look at this site through my iPhone everywhere I go! Oh my gosh! I'm a junkie!!!

So I've always been adhd, the T tried to have me tested but they said my startle reflects was so high, they couldn't get a valid reading...I kept jumping up and down in my seat and was startled by new images on the screen so I just pushed the button for everything ha! Anyway, I'm getting so...

Viosinger you're so right! I just feel like I should be old enough to be able to handle what life throws at me, but I can't :( it's hard to acknowledge or admit the I NEED the T, and being dependent on someone else scares me something awful...the old abandonment issues, argh! Is there another...

Yep, that sounds like numbing so you can protect yourself from the possible pain of the future abandonment :( argh, I sure feel this way too! It's like being on a flipping roller coaster all the time :confused:

Thank you all for your thoughtful and supportive comments...I think email can be difficult sometimes since it's hard to identify others intensions or to clarify immediately. It feels so supportive here, I feel so blessed to have found this community...I so needed it!!

I don't know if I'm "dramatic" persay, definitely spirited :) I think I ended up making a bigger hoo-ha when something was wrong because no one really believed me :( I am the youngest of 3 and my brother and sister still have "real" problems, and I just don't seem to merit "real" problems in my...

Maybe this has been asked a million times before, but I'm so tired of hearing how most people (70%) who suffer a trauma don't end up with ptsd, so we are the 30% that do...why? I struggle with feeling that my trauma, my distress, all the rest are all made up in my mind and if I just tried I...

Even though it's hard, it will probably be the best for you to talk with her about it. She may not even be aware of it. Not that it's the same intensity but it was making me feel horrible every time someone said "just" anything...it felt so invalidating, so I told her I thought the word should...

OMgosh! I totally have those kind if dreams except in mine something awful has happened and I see my T and I can't get to her, she's surrounded by other people and doesn't notice me, argh! It's soooo upsetting! I have told her about them, although I feel foolish, but it does seem to make it feel...

Ya, I read it, and it's not shit :) it's real, even though it's awful! We all have some purpose in life, and we are all unique and are meant to be here. I know it's hard to talk to T about your traumas, but it's such a relief to be able to talk to someone, and help you get some perspective...

Wow! What a lot of emotions came up through this thread!! Do you see that? Not only the original post, but all throughout...attachment is such a powerful and scary thing, at least for me. I'm constantly questioning my T about whether this or that will cause her to stop working with me. I think...

I really appreciate both of your support and acknowledgement that intervening in an emergency can really need you up :) there's normalcy in knowing that for me. Sometimes the part I think I struggle with most is the helpless people around me, the feeling of it not being real, and how in either...

I feel your pain :( I haven't figured out how to help others understand, and I think sometimes it's because I don't really understand what happened to me either. I've lost several friends, and my partner tries to understand and be supportive, but sometimes he's the opposite of supportive. I...

Thank you for sharing pamcoco and albatross! Up until now I have felt very alone :( people recognize that I have ptsd but it's hard when nobody seems to really get it...I don't wish anyone trauma, but at least I'm not still thinking, with help of these replies that I'm just a stupid-head because...

I only started on this forum two days ago and I feel such a better feeling if normalcy and support already! Although, some of my friends have faded away as this all started, some are sticking by, but they just don't really understand, especially my family :( so talking about it all here, feels...

Wow seedling, we have very similar young life experiences! I'm sorry you had to endure that :( it is soooo hard when we are taught that emotions are not okay for us to have, that's probably why it's so hard to know what mine are, I have completely disconnected with them! I actually did that as a...

Wow! What a helpful conversation :)When I was growing up I was "responsible" (I was told) for others feelings, emotions, for making them better and for my own punishment. As the youngest of three, this always seemed a little weird to me, but that was who I had to be. On the topic of "making it...

Oh my! That hurts :( I hope he's getting therapy! It's really hard to manage the memories of the experience.