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After 9 sessions at the chiropractor, I'm in better shape then I have been in years. No, not physically, mentally. To think that the pain has had that much bearing on my reality for so long boggles my mind. Oh, I still have anger, anxiety and all the rest. But it's focused now. To the most...

It's 9/11. I'll be piping in Fredericton today. This is the day where it all started for me. I'll be there with all the medals on, medals I earned revenging the deaths of 343 firefighters. They never got medals of course. Kind of puts those little bronze disks into perspective I guess. When...

Since I got hit I have had reoccuring back issues. Finally got to see a secialist last week. I've got nerve damage going down my left leg, which is causing a condition called drop foot. I need specialty foot wear and a brace that pulls up on the foot. It's not a subtle thing. You'll be able...

Through all this I have gone to the therapists, I have taken the drugs, I have tried to modify my self-distructive behaviours. I have been honest with myself, and even celibrated the small victories. Today was not a victory. Confrontation. Anger, self-righteousness, indignation. I lashed...

The Beast That Shouted Love at ME It was an innocent enough comment. Intellectually it was hard to even argue with it. And the message of peace and love was something I may have even said myself 10 years ago. 10 years ago, before my world changed forever...

I've been lashing out for abit now, and my wife is starting to grind her teeth. I need the anger to end, but new shit keeps broadsiding me. I can't seem to get it under control, or resist responding. I've already burned a few bridges, and I'm throwing petrol on others. Got to slow down...

I just got a notification that I have been a member here for one year. What a year. In that time I have gone from being recommended for assessment, to being assessed, to diagnosis, to starting medications and treatments. This site has helped me ALLOT, walking me through each step, helping me...

PTSD, as a Stress Disorder, greatly affects our self confidence, trust, and communications skills. The end result is that we withdrawl and suffer in silence. This Forum has given me an outlet where I could rebuild some of these skills. I am truely not the same person that came on here last...

There was only 3 Rules at the Mess. Members will not discuss 1) Politics 2) Religion 3) Women Never really understood the rules when I was younger. Now that the Beast is deciding my fate, they make allot of sense. I guess what my point is, if I blow up over shit, take it with a grain of...

I got another request today to join in and protest the Canadain Veterans Bill of Rights. All aspects of the process seem to be under attack. From the claims and appeals process to the compensation package. Am I missing something? In a nut shell; I initially launched my claims for physical...

Okay, I'm on page 3 in the search results and still no real usable info. Seems lots of people have used, I understand that ativan has a limited period in which it will be effective, and I know it's adictive. Any warnings out there? If I do get addicted, how hard is it to get rid of? Signs...

In Canada (as with many other Countries) we Remember the Sacrifice of our Comrades on Nov 11th each year. Today my Church held thier own Cerimony and I was asked to Lay a wreath on behalf of our Congregation. The Legion was also in attendance, and layed a wreath as well. My son was wearing...

So tomorrow I start assessments at the Pain Clinic. They specialise in dealing with cronic pain through medications, physiotherapy and assessment for surgical options. I have been unemployed since January, and actually gave up the drugs last March. But I am still in some pain every day and I...

My initial assessment was done with a psycologist. She really didn't have to push hard, I was ready and it came out. By the end of the assessment (5 appointments over about a month) I was an emotional wreck and really feeling that maybe it was leading some wheres. It's hard to understand why...

If a guy's out in the forest, 100 miles away from the closest town, with no women within a 3 day hike, and he says something,,, is he still wrong?

Last week I had hope. A week ago I was singing the sounds of tommorow. Today I am done. Last night, my wife informed me she doesn't care, and I'm done. I have accepted that this isn't going to get better, and that my son is the only reason to keep bashing my head against the wall. What a...

Rough week so far. Looking around, and not really liking where I'm at. This post is a bit hard to come to grips with, so bear with me. All along, ever since I've hit bottom, I have had the erge to just run away. For 2 years, I've been thinking about a box somewhere where I can just sit and...

In 2 hrs I go to my first "treatment" session. Up until know, it's all been assessments. The strange part is that I don't get the results of the assessment until Wednesday, and I'm starting with a new therapist today. My old therapist doesn't have "the time" to properly deal with my issues...

So I was following the thread to create a space just for the supporters of Combat PTSD sufferers. I couldn't help thinking that it started BECAUSE of me. I have been posting allot in the supporters area. At first I was angry. I saw my wife in all of you, and couldn't accept that she might be...

It's official. I have symptoms in all three categories used to determine if one has PTSD. Next Tuesday I am doing a CAP test. This is suppose to determine the extent of my problem. Then they are going to come up with a treatment plan. They have already told me that family conselling will be...

I've been asking for help for a long time now it seems. When they first told me that there were no appointments till next fall I nearly gave up and ran. Now that my appointment is only 8 days away I'm back to the same place. I asked for help, it's almost here, and all I want to do is run...

I am a retired Tank Commander from the Canadian Forces. I was deployed on 5 tours over 22 years. My last deployment was in 2007. On that tour I had a close encounter with a Toyota 1 ton packed with propane cylinders. Got away with only 40 something stitches and some burns. But it was really...

Everyone has to be the new guy at some point. This ones my turn. I am a recently retired Armoured Soldier. I did 22 years with the Canadian Forces. My last tour overseas was in 2007. As a tank commander I was involved in many situations that were interesting. But my IED strike toward the...