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I have complex ptsd, started life with trauma and that went on for 30 years or so. A lot of my early trauma came from family. So now that I am old and I have managed to alienate all my siblings and both parents, 2 exes and distant with both kids, I wonder of the value of trying to reconnect with...

I am multiply traumatized by a wide variety of incidents from early childhood to fairly recent and I am getting old... So pretty traumatized. Stuff just keeps getting me. I got a a new job after a layoff without missing a day of work. So that was good. The layoff was because I failed to jail at...

I got hit by a car 6 years ago and have been working out since towards a paun free life. I fid it without pain medications as i fear addictions. So i got the news last week that my lower back will forever be painful. I am pretty upset. Angry. Worried. Old age is gonna suck. Diabetes will take my...

I have been victimized in every major relationship in my life, stating with an abusive and unpleasant mother, a murder suicide attempt by exe number one, a key lie about fertility by baby moma number two who happened to be a lawyer and has beat me with our wonderful but unintended daughter ever...

I got a job that is great and they value what i do. The commute is long at an hour each way. That is a sressor for me. But the big stressor is the product being developed is dual use. One use is very good and humanitarian. The other....not so much. I have been pretty determined to not build...

The job I took seed to be all humanitarian. Cool technology without screwing up my karma. Then I found they have a military application and now i am part of it. I have spent a lot of years avoiding any involvement with offensive military technology as an avoidance strategy, So it is a stressor...

As one of my therapist re framed things for me, I have been the victim in every major relationship I have had in my life. So, years of therapy and introspection and working on me. I am better. I have stayed away from dating in order to not screw up any progress I have made. Last year, I met...

So, in the middle of a meltdown with my hex, I called my sister for some help. Dad is deranged after an operation, knee replacement. The prognosis is unknown. My family and I barely talk. My weird ass behavior is a big part of the problem. Most of them, not dad so much, were abusive or un...

Does the news trigger your crap too? Like mass shootings and bombings? Like politicians wanting to play war with another broken country posing no threat? Or is that just my stuff I am reacting to? I don't make a point of seeing the news anymore but I still hear about it. Short of becoming a...

So I have a bunch of little traumas, some narrow escapes and some weird occurrences. Failed to bond with primary nurturer (mom), who did periodically, without warning or predictability sometimes physically "correct" me often from behind, and I had contentious relations with my siblings... MDD &...

A year ago, after moving to a remote part of California for a job, I got fired. I was still recovering from a down and out 3 years earlier involving an accident, lots of pain, job loss and homelessness. So, things got better, I was working and then depression set in, resulting in job loss and...

While I was picking myself up with the help of the va a couple of years ago, I discovered a group that studied mindfulness and meditation. Now I am a little too paranoid to sit with my eyes closed long, but the mindfulness thing seems useful. It helped me find the pause button on both my startle...