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I'm temporarily taking space and staying in a friend's room while she's off volunteering elsewhere. I just got here, am washing the sheets, unpacked my stuff. It's a situation with three other housemates. This is the first time ever that I've been independent. I titled this "semi-independent"...

I say that I have been depressed since I was 8. I don't know if that's an exact age, but it's somewhere around there. For the most part, I just live with Dysthymia. Sometimes it doubles up and I'm clinically depressed. Sometimes I don't even know what is going on, it's just a mash of feeling and...

So, what amounts to extreme reactivity for me, at least, has me very upset about myself. I honestly don't know what's a flashback and what's just reactivity. J thinks I'm being manipulative. I'm not manipulating on purpose. I am having really bad avoidance patterns. I mostly dissociate. I...

J and I have been living together for 4 years. In earlier times, before this spring (when stuff happened and the lid came off our trauma pasts), in general I was clingy, and J would take space by working overtime, or dive into a project and basically push me away. I felt wary to even ask if he...

Quit smoking Quit moderate drinking Quit caffeine back That was back in May or whenever it was. I'm not big on dates or counting days or anything. I feel so much better. No caffeine, while hard because of withdrawal headache that lasted a couple days, I sleep better and feel more even...

This is kind of an insidious form of control that I identify with, and it hurts because it's hard to even describe in my case what was going on, except that reading about it produces very strong feelings like this happened to me at a pre-verbal stage. Google it, wikipedia has some information...

I'm married to another new member @Jemini We are having a lot of problems. Discovering and learning about C-PTSD as something we are both dealing with has helped us understand a lot about our patterns but maybe we're too late, or it's too complicated or we just can't work through things enough...

I tried searching for a discussion of this and could not find one, so figured I would start it. I was recently inpatient in a trauma and dissociative disorders unit. It was unlike any other inpatient experience I had. It wasn't without its difficulties, but some things I thought were very...

We were in a really intensely bad time with the aftermath of the marathon and one day, I just up and quit. There was a confrontation, and I don't want to get into details, but after the confrontation I took a lunch break, got some distance from it, and felt like "I don't want to be treated this...

Hi. I chose the name presentjoy because it's kind of a goal rather than reality. But I feel like it's something to keep breathing towards. I've found solace in art, yoga, cycling. My husband is also here, a recently joined member. We are both still reeling after events in April. While he...