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So I think that as I am doing inner child work (writing between left and right hand) I may be experiencing different personalities instead? Whenever my "inner child" speaks its accompanied by intense feelings of time and reality distortions. I feel like the fabric of reality is like a lava lamp...

Im avoiding phoning the samaritans I'm not sure I can take their silences and asks for descriptions on how I feel. I dont know how I feel, thats why I'm smearing blood everywhere I want to leave a trail leading to a murder scene and then finally someone will take me seriously instead of looking...

I do. Its not poo for me, but blood. I'm so ashamed and angry that the main core of my life is this and that I don't remember experiencing life before this pre-verbal pain. There are no words or tears are enough. One thing that isn't enough for me is saying 'that's life' or 'stop saying its not...

I've posted a little bit on the main boards before, but have decided to introduce myself; or at least take a shot at it because with ptsd there seems to be multiple universes of who I am within one body and only thin moments where they are experienced together momentarily. I know that this isn't...

Just had a most frustrating day. I'm constantly caught between being bored and lonely and being overstimulated. I don't feel emotionally connected to my friends or that I want to seek out their company...but when I lie in bed all day my mood goes down. Im stuck in a cycle of doing things to...

I am wondering if someone can relate. I am somewhere on the dissociation scale...and only at the beginning of finding out that dissociation is a real state of mind and that there are valid reasons as to why I've felt this way all my life. I do have a distant memory of going to my key worker in...

Just relised through doing 'inner child' work with my therapist that a good chunk of my trauma was through receiving blood tranfusions when as a premature baby and the blood was poisoned and I almost died. I keep feeling that I have too much blood and I need to get it out of my body.

I don't know how to write this post...I think I have alters and I feel so alone. I tried to explain it to someone who said that she believed me and I just shut down and couldn't get the words out. How am I to explain this to people who don't understand? I feel embarrassed and ashamed and...