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I'm dreading next Thursday... It will be 10 years since I lost my son to an ectopic at 9 wks. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I remember the Dr's saying there was nothing in my uterus and I would have to go to the hospital. About an hour later I found out that I would have to...

I have been feeling so down and stuck these last few months as it gets closer to my son's death anniversary. (08/25/2006) People have been so rude telling me I NEED to move on.:mad: I thought I was doing ok until this year. It's just a HUGE reminder that we would have had a 9 year old.:unsure: I...

I've had a lot on my mind lately, Next month on August 25th will be one of the hardest days of my life and I don't feel mentally prepared for it. August of 2006 me and my newlywed husband of only 4 months were beyond excited that we were going to be parents.:) We went to my first OB...

Every time I fall asleep even if it's for a lil bit, it's always the same damn nightmare. My mom yelling at me telling me how worthless I am and her beating me with plastic hangers. I wish I could move past it. Ever since she passed away in 2014 they've been really bad. I've tried talking to a...

My mother's birthday is on Monday, she would have been turning 47. She passed away April 5,2014. We never had a good relationship, she had been on drugs since I was a baby. I was born prematurely because of her drug use and have a bunch of medical issues from it. She also mentally...

I don't know how much more I can handle. My husband has been sick on and off with stomach issues since 2010 and every morning it's pretty much the same routine. He sits on the floor in front of the couch and cries because his stomach is hurting and talks about how he can't do this anymore and...

I was on the phone with my father tonight and we got talking about my uncle. My dad asked me if he went to my aunt's house this Christmas and I said no he said he had other things to do. Well he told me that my uncle had been posting crazy status updates on Facebook so I went to look on his...

My anxiety is getting bad and I'm feeling so overwhelmed lately. Ever since my husband got sick in 2010 and got his gallbladder taken out he has had the worst attitude ever!! We live with his mom and 85 yr old grandma that has dementia that needs help being taking care of. I have cerebral palsy...

Well I started EMDR yesterday and it was a little intense. Remembering all the abuse from my mom and how scared I was alone in the hospital after brain surgeries. How she beat me with plastic hangers and broke them on me. And how nobody stopped her... It was hard but I'm glad I got it out. My T...

I was hanging up my husband's clothes the other day and I had a panic attack. The feeling of that damn plastic hanger sends my anxiety through the roof. It also makes my night terrors worse :( I haven't been able to shake this feeling. Whenever I try to vent to my family or friends I always...

My husband has been sick for like the past week with extremely bad stomach cramps and has been waking me up around 7-8 in the morning. I don't sleep well because my pain has been all over the place and I can't stop the night terrors. I think I have been only getting like 4 hrs of sleep a night...

My depression has been coming in waves and it kicks my ass every time it's here. I was supposed to have an EMDR appointment but it got pushed back to sometime in May. Sometime I feel like I'm going crazy. I stay quiet and to myself because that is what I have taught myself. Everyday I'm not...

Today is not a day of celebration for me, it marks the 1 year death anniversary of my abuser also know as my mother. I don't know how to feel, I am angry, sad, pissed, relieved and I miss her so much. I'm so confused right now, We were supposed to release balloons for my mom tonight and when I...

I'm starting therapy today and I'm nervous. I tried counseling last year and it didn't help. I just felt like my counselor didn't care and wasn't trying to help me move through my PTSD and Severe depression.

I fall asleep for little while and I always have a nightmare from my childhood. Before my mother died my nightmares were only a few times every so often. She died April 5,2014 exactly 9 years to the day that I met my husband. Ever since she passed I have been having nightmares every night. The...

I had my best friend open up to me the other night about her true feelings towards me and the things is there mutual. But I'm married and don't want to hurt either one. Love sucks

My husband said a horrible thing to me today... He may not get to go to my family's house for Thanksgiving because he suffers from Bile Reflux and it causes him horrible stomach cramps and vomiting. Last Thanksgiving we stayed home because of his condition and my family got so upset with me. I...

Hi everyone my name is Ashley and I'm 27. I've been married since April 17,2006, 4 months after we got married I got pregnant but ended up having a tubal pregnancy and lost the baby. I was told that I couldn't have kids "naturally" so that started my depression back and I haven't been able to...