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This is going to be a long one....sorry. Things aren't so good right now, and it's interesting how it's flipped around. I just need to tell someone because I feel so isolated. My psychiatrist believes I became immune to my last medication Prozac, so I was switched to Wellbutrin. I've not been on...

I've been wanting to move out for well over a year now, and I finally made it happen. Through quite the crash course, I acquired a new job which gave me enough money to afford rent. About three weeks ago, my fiance and I moved into our first apartment and so much of that constant stress has...

Last time I was in therapy, my therapist talked me through how it's normal and acceptable to feel multiple things toward a person. I struggle greatly with deciding my attitudes toward and perceptions of others. I want to decide if I like or dislike someone, to have it be solid, known, but with...

I'm learning a bit more about myself and my condition. More so that this thing I have doesn't ever go away, I just learn how to deal with it. I went to visit my psychiatrist to get a new prescription, and we started talking about support animals. When my fiance left on his short deployment, it...

I've set up a white noise speaker to help me sleep at night. So far it's working. It's interesting how most of the sounds that I can choose from give me anxiety, such as thunderstorms, rain on a car roof, birds chirping in the forest. But the airplane engine sound is calming, even though I'm...

I went through a long period of not really dreaming or anything. Even having positive dreams sometimes. However now, it seems that my nightmares have returned..and some are slightly different than others. I of course have the typical ones I've always experienced, strange life or death situations...

I was fairly stressed at the beginning. So bad so, that it seemed as if my progress had vanished. Digestive irregularities returned, nausea, teeth grinding, headaches - the works. Though after being thrown into a crash course and developing better relationships with my coworkers, my stress level...

I didn't really think it would make that much of a difference. I also didn't think I'd be able to notice the differences, but they're staring me in the face. I was so constantly anxious before, I was always clenching my teeth, thus always having headaches. Rare it was that I didn't have one. It...

My psychiatrist wants to check if my liver and thyroid are working correctly. Understandable - it doesn't make sense to give me prozac if my thyroid is going bonkers. So I need to get a physical, but I figure this is my opportunity to check for more than just those two. Here's the thing. I'm...

Hey all, I posted a thread a while ago about being hopeless with returning to work. I've been looking at resume how-to's, but it's no different each time. List what you've done, and your skills. I personally feel that I have none, but I know that's not the case. My fiance pointed out that...

Well, I went to the Psychiatrist yesterday. Before that, I was having this huge breakdown. Probably like..a really, really intense panic attack. I'm not even sure if I can pin point the reason. Total dread. It was almost as if I was like an animal in shock, I just sat there, frozen, weeping and...

Last night, I had this epiphany that hit me like a truck. I've known for a bit that the abuse I've endured for a long time has convinced me that I was "unworthy of love" if I messed up in any way. I was always striving for perfect and nothing less, and it crushed me when the PTSD and Depression...

I was notified the other day that, after three months or so of not working, I'll be working this weekend to cover some coworkers. Its like the anxiety almost went into hibernation because of how good I was at avoiding stressors. BOOM. I feel it coursing through my veins, all over again. Suddenly...

I have been working as a cashier at a produce market for nearly 2 years now. I haven't received a raise, and I'm stuck at minimum wage. I'm almost positive it's because Im a woman, seen as as a hazard (I was told that) , and thus can't do closing procedures, or run the store alone. It pisses...

La la la, doing taxes. Everything is fine! Okay, box b? I have that value.. Went through and it all went well. But the moment I couldn't find an exact value for one of my donations and expenses, I started to panic. Instead of it being a refund, it was a bill. Had to set it aside. Okay, I'm not...

I was thinking about triggers earlier. As with any word, there can be different meanings to different people. I wanted to take a "thought inventory", if you will. For me, I suppose I'm still figuring out what these terms mean to me. I have things that get the ball rolling on upsetting thought...

So, I know I was diagnoses with PTSD. I know that for a long time I've struggled and when the triggers are there, I really react. I've just been trying to avoid them I guess. The other day I saw a dad trying to discipline his little girl by threatening to leave her in the park. He even got in...

I guess I started to feel it coming on again tonight. I notice something, this time a small bump on the roof of my mouth, and suddenly I think I could have cancer, or AIDS or whatever - you name it. Google is not my friend. I get really on edge and just notice every flipping thing that's going...

Hey all, I'll go by Senecia here and I'm 19. :) Pretty much my whole life I've been seen as the happy-go-lucky gal who loves everything. I can't pick a favorite color, because I love them all; same goes for animals and more. When I'm "up" I surely do feel that way, but the past several years...