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I'm desperately trying to find ways of managing my anxiety and grounding me when I'm in that place where I'm consistently struggling with intense anxiety, fear and paranoia and constantly on the verge of (or in a state of) depersonalisation, derealisation or dissociation. I used to be able to...

A few days ago, I found out that someone I know has just started going out with a guy with the same name as the guy who I guess you/I might say abused me. (I don't know I can't say it - it's not really relevant anyway). It has somehow sent me into a downward spiral, but until today I had no idea...

Ok so this is a bit weird....this week in therapy I started to very gingerly approach the topic of what happened. I don't know what prompted it (after 3 years of avoiding it except for very very vaguely referencing things linked to it). I suddenly just had a panic attack the day of therapy and...

I've got this constant fear, "what if I'm making it all up?" Like, what if I'm lying to myself and for some reason want it to have happened? What if I don't actually experience flashbacks, what if I just think I do and actually I just want other people to comfort me/give me attention or...

Recently I've been finding that more and more certain sounds make me furious or really upset and scared. They don't seem to be related to specific triggers or anything - it is more that I feel totally overwhelmed by it. Beeping makes me absolutely furious and I can't contain the anger. It has...

Recently, as I start falling asleep, I apparently start having full blown conversations and moving about. Each time it happens, my boyfriend has to try and calm me down - normally I'm stressed out in the situations. Sometimes they are related to what I'm feeling like in normal life, but I don't...

Today is my birthday. Nothing bad has happened on my birthday and I am grateful for that. So why have I been freaking out about it for weeks and now it's here feel a weird emptiness? I (sometimes quite insistently) didn't want people to do things to celebrate my birthday - I felt like I was...

I find it hard to talk about any of it, but I am trying to write/type because I really need some support/understanding/insight into this. This is a kind of very much abridged version, and I can't write a lot of it so I've just sort of...implied. Basically when I was 19, I was dating a guy I met...

In the past week or so, I've realised that I have a lot more triggers than I previously thought. Weirdly they seem to be mostly about things around what happened than the actual "thing(s)". I never realised before how completely crippled I am by fear of these objects/situations/words on a daily...

Ok right, I haven't been on here in a while so this is harder than I thought it was going to be. But then this whole damn thing is harder than I thought it would ever be so.... Anyway, 4 years ago, I was repeatedly sexually assaulted over a period of 6 months by a guy I was seeing (don't ask...

I hope this isn't triggering, I won't go into it, but I do reference generically what type of trauma. So, my trauma (3 years ago) involved sexual abuse, humiliation and domination from male(s) and I still experience lots of flashbacks, especially if I see someone else acting in a way that they...

I'm about to start some work on my trauma with my therapist, because recently I've had frequent flashbacks and regular dissociations, often not with any sort of identifiable trigger, it's like it's got out of hand... I've been trying to do some of the work that she set me (a 3rd person written...