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  1. Crystal Rose

    Second dose of edmr having extreme side effects...

    I feel like what you are describing was a similar experience to mine. I guess I felt like experiencing all you have described as my normal last year. You are doing some very important work for yourself by addressing these hard moments. I did EMDR for a few months to really try and gain back some...
  2. Crystal Rose

    Lying & Cheating As Triggers

    It's been a very hard day for me. A series of events have made me feel unsafe around my ex's roommate with unwanted advances and I feel like I'm always navigating stuff like this and all I want are good boundaries that protect me. I can barely muster enough energy to reach out to help or support...
  3. Crystal Rose

    Therapist Reaction When Telling Them Something Hard

    I wanted to clarify that my therapist is very equipped and qualified to talk about abuse. I still think her frowning is just her normal response mechanism. It's hard to hear about abuse from anyone.
  4. Crystal Rose

    Therapist Reaction When Telling Them Something Hard

    My therapist tends to frown a lot when I talk about physical abuse or very very heavy stuff. It's hard to muster up the courage and initially I felt really badly and continue to be hard on myself when I'd see her frown. Now that I've gotten in more of a groove with her and gotten to know her...
  5. Crystal Rose

    News Top Army Doctor Leery Of Treating Ptsd With Marijuana

    Those looking for pain management should look into CBD oil products. For those unfamiliar, you don't experience a "high" because these canibinoids have been isolated and don't have the effects that THC does. Hemp derived oil is legal in most states now though I've been noticing I have nausea the...
  6. Crystal Rose

    Where Is My Mind?

    Most days actually. I wish I could control my reactions in hindsight all the time. What a ride of impermanence. Maybe it's a sign to travel and be free more often.
  7. Crystal Rose

    Other Coping After The Us Election.

    Does anyone else just feel completely numb following this election? I worked on a state assembly race in Wisconsin for the last six months. I had started working at a renewable energy company and my boss was asked to run by the Democratic Party and she's honestly one of the smartest, most...
  8. Crystal Rose

    News Ecstasy... A Possible Treatment For PTSD

    I've done A LOT of MDMA and it really doesn't seem like it would have long term positive effects like many psychedelics being used in the latest medical research have. Also I took MDMA and ketamine together unknowingly once and I just saw wormholes connecting people to eachother's chests and...
  9. Crystal Rose

    Lying And Its Effects On Our Brain!

    I was just searching the forums re: lying and lies so thank you! I have been noticing that I am hypervigilant when I'm lied to. I am working on recognizing deceit but I feel so ill equipped and like it might make me not trust anyone ever. Which is one of my biggest fears lately. I'm realize...
  10. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    Bedbugs are awful! My best friend last year dealt with them in her apartment building in LA and I felt terrible for her. Literally carpets and upholstered furniture have to go. It's the only way. I would be drinking too. I would recommend food grade diatomaceous earth to kill them. You might get...
  11. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    I've decided to do it. Negative 20 degrees in January is motivating. I sobbed my eyes out last night and couldn't imagine doing it in winter. I feel like I don't have the means for the move but I'm going to have faith. Changing my scenery even if it doesn't work out there is at least going to...
  12. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    I'm glad you are protecting yourself. I had been avoiding a 12 step program for a long time mostly because I didn't want to open up that part of me to strangers. The group thing is weird. I feel like there's a lot of wisdom in the one I've been going to though. I used to have a job working for...
  13. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    I'm sorry to hear that it's been a tough transition. Do you live rurally? I hope that it will be only somewhat temporary for me. I just want to make everyone have goats and chicken and improve the lifestyle of my family but I know I can't force them to be healthy or at least attempt to be. The...
  14. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    I'm sorry that happened to you. It sounds like you really thrived in school under really intense circumstances. You are so strong! It also sounds like some real karma happened there with your mom and step dad. Do you speak with her? So far I'm finding Al Anon really helpful for breaking the...
  15. Crystal Rose

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    I'm almost 33 and I am working on getting a handle on surviving a betrayal after moving for a long distance relationship. I left my career and my life out in LA for what I thought would be a loving and supportive future with my partner in the Midwest last fall. It took me a long time to get on...
  16. Crystal Rose

    Ever feel like you just can't catch a break?

    I understand re managing anxiety. I take meds as needed but lately I've just been letting it come. It really sucks and often it comes on very unexpectedly and for no reason the last few weeks. I think the DBT handbook is $6 or $7 on Amazon and I found out after buying it full price. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I...
  17. Crystal Rose

    Ever feel like you just can't catch a break?

    What are you saying sounds so familiar. I feel like I'm right there with you. Only recently have I started attempting self acceptance and it's basically been me trying to rebuild my self esteem. I was in Oakland for a wedding recently and an old friend who is a new therapist out there...
  18. Crystal Rose

    Ever feel like you just can't catch a break?

    I feel like I just turned a corner recently, so I just want to encourage you that things take time. As much as I wanted to force healing, I can't. You are working on yourself which is amazing! You are growing. I think the more you focus on taking care of yourself, it's going to start to get...
  19. Crystal Rose

    BPD Ptsd and borderline personality disorder

    I think overwhelming emotions are common for me, and I have been doing some DBT work. BPD seems fairly broad and less disruptive in reality (not to diminish its significance necessarily) - are you concerned re a professional misdiagnosis?
  20. Crystal Rose

    Kicked Out Of Church

    I felt alienated from my conservative Baptist church when I was 17 because my grandmother was Pentecostal and took me to a revival. I came back asking questions about speaking in tongues and was pariah-ed from my bible study, no longer allowed to lead worship in my youth group etc. etc. My youth...
  21. Crystal Rose

    Relationship Confused Do I Let Go Or Hold On

    I was in a committed relationship and my partner left when he couldn't support me through my PTSD. Now trust is a huge hurdle for me. If he is avoidant, which you can be with or without PTSD, it has zero to do with you. You deserve commitment. Your time and energy is valuable and if anything he...
  22. Crystal Rose

    News The Word "trigger" Today - Your Take?

    I have been having a tough time online witnessing the stigma surrounding it all and the really ignorant backlash. I try and educate but I had one misguided woman claim that people who have faced trauma (in this case she was diminishing sexual assault because of it's commonplace) are just too...
  23. Crystal Rose

    General Al Anon

    I just went to my first meeting today. I've been meaning to go for years and I'm really glad I went.
  24. Crystal Rose

    News Trump Suggests That Soldiers Who Suffer From Ptsd Aren’t “strong”

    I am not a soldier, or supporting Hillary or Trump. I'm just sad that Trump is spouting ignorance re: PTSD today. “When people come back from war and combat and they see maybe what the people in this room have seen many times over, and you’re strong and you can handle it, but a lot of people...
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