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I can suggest one thing... doing ayahuasca in a shamanic setting. It is a hallucenogenic plant medicine from Peru, and must be done in a carefully monitored, sacred way, in a group, with a good person and their supportive group leading it. It is considered that this plant medicine has a spirit...
I feel you! Same kind of thing just happened to me... but I'm in a long-distance relationship with mine. We were going to spend the summer together then try to move in together... but I guess we're going too fast, it's too much change all at once, brings up so many different triggers for him...