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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Thanks for your reply. I never heard of TRE. I will follow up and look into it. I'm glad you have someone in your life now. Thanks again
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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Thanks for your reply. I appreciate the information and your heartfelt thoughts. Everyone has a story to tell. I need to figure out that life isn't a fairytail painted in the movies or tv. I need to hear everyones stories and know that its hard to find relationships and trust others. In my...
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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Yes I am in treatment. Its been a rocky road of them trying to figure me out so to speak. But I do like my Dr now. I just have a really difficult time opening up about anything. I guess I don't trust much. SO I'm hoping that will change. Thanks!
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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Thanks so much for your reply! It means a lot to me. I wasn't sure if I was abnormal. I see things on tv all the time and hear them on the radio as well as on the computer. Its always out there and I constantly feel like I'm a crazy person alone in the world. I appreciate your response!
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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Thanks for your responses. I understand well about the childhood abuse and rape at that age. I'm sorry you have suffered that way. I am happy that you have found a companion though. It makes me feel comforted in a way to see maybe there are people that understand. I don't know if my body will...
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    Avoiding life and what makes life special...relationships

    Hi, I haven't been here in a while but I was reading posts and I've seen that many victims of sexual abuse particularly as a child have gone on to find partners, get married and have families. I'm curious about that because I have avoided EVERYTHING to do with sex since I was abused as a child...
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    Suicide Note?

    I have been trying to work through things with my therapist about my childhood. It has been going on for a couple years now. I actually have 2 therapists, 1 from the VA and one from a private hospital. They think if I talk about everything I will get better. It's been 30 years since I was a kid...
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    I hear you. I guess it's easy for me to see the one side of the equation because I'm on that side. I feel so comforted in the woods alone or in nature alone. I feel SO confident in just myself with my training in the wilderness and with a knife. I also think what you said, about what could...
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    I can imagine having kids and a family would definitely change things for someone. I happy that happened for you. I suppose being in that space...no fear for your on safety...is a big minority...because I know the symptoms of PTSD reflect a big deal on hyper alertness. I get that, and I'm not...
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    Thanks. I will try that route. I appreciate your input. I do sympathize with everyone else on here too!!!
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    I wasn't trying to be obstinate or disprove anyone's viewpoints. I was actually trying to see who was more in the category like I am...taking risks instead of caring about protecting themselves. Do you know what I mean? I assume the general public would take precautions like food and water...
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    Adult Relationships?

    It sucks when we aren't shown anything and are supposed to find out on are own. I'm glad you are trying. That is a great thing, and very strong of you!! Thanks for sharing that. I appreciate it. I let my fear stop me so many times. I know relationships are a normal lifelong struggle, but I have...
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    Am I the only one that is not afraid for my life? I'm not making other people's lives inconsequential. I'm just wondering if I'm the only one that has no regard or fear anymore for my safety? I go to the state park and walk alone at night on purpose. I hope to run into someone so I can confront...
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    Adult Relationships?

    Being that it's around Valentine's Day, I always get thinking about ever being closer to other human beings. I'm 42 and have NEVER been in ANY relationship with any sex. I know I'm attracted to men just because that's the feeling I get when I see them (I'm a female), but I have never even been...
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    Walking Alone In The Woods

    I believe there are 2 extremes to what happens after going through a trauma...one is something like you are dealing with where you are afraid, maybe more than you feel is normal, or more than the "average" person sees as "normal" compared to another individual woman. The other extreme is what I...
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    Is It Possible To Get Those Around You To Accept You Don't Want To Live?

    OK so have you been raped repeatedly by numerous people when you were less than 9 years old? Did you fear that you would be attacked by every adult that you came in contact with? How about the general day to day existence after you've been raped for 11 years? After that were you happy to be in...
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    State Hospitals In The Us

    No I wasn't committed by a court, only by doctors at a private hospital that didn't want to pay the bill anymore. My insurance had run out, they didn't notify anyone else that I was a Veteran who would have qualified for federal services. I was new to the mental health field so I didn't realize...
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    State Hospitals In The Us

    Thanks for your input. I can see how that 8 hours would do that. I remember my first 8 hours. I was so terrified. There was nothing I could do though. My therapists had left me, and the private hospital had sent me there, so I had nobody looking after these doctors or nurses to check on them and...
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    State Hospitals In The Us

    I'm wondering if anyone else has ever experienced being in a state hospital in the US? I had been in "the best" trauma hospital in the US but my insurance ran out. The doctors told me they couldn't help anymore so they were sending me to the state hospital. They didn't realize or didn't care...
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    Undiagnosed You Just Don't Turn It Off...

    Also wanted to say SemperFi Gunsmith. I am thankful for your service. I was in a training battalion that did simulations for Marines going over to Iraq, so I never had to deploy like you did. My PTSD isn't related to the fighting. I am proud to be a Marine, but I am prouder that people like you...
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    Sufferer A Letter I Sent To To My Treatment Coordinator At The Va

    I hope you don't feel so alone. You deserve the best for everything you have given and for being the person you are. I am a former Marine and I know what you guys must go thru and its amazing to me the fortitude you have. I think its great you came here to look for support, and I know there...
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    Pet Lovers With Ptsd...

    I wanted to update any who had followed this before. My dog, Abby had to be euthanized in July. She was a solid part of my life for 15 years. She listened to me and let me know she was there for me. Pet owners, you know what I'm talking about. There is not anything close to what a loyal dog can...
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    Self harm in adults with ptsd

    Just wanted to check in and see how others are doing now with their self harm. I wanted to check in myself too and say that I was doing ok for a while. I just fell short over the last few weeks. It's been a little crazy at my house...actually a lot crazy. For those of you that self injure, you...
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    At What Age Did Dissociation Start?

    I'm just wondering, Lionheart777, have you dissociated since you were 13? I am just interested because for me it has continued for my entire life. I was sexually abused and dissociated from an extremely young age like you, and I still dissociate. I call it disconnecting. Well, that's what my...
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    At What Age Did Dissociation Start?

    I get that entirely. You do enough to get what you need. Drinking isn't always an evil thing. Dr's give us medications to help us that don't work all the time. They think they are helping us with these medications, but they aren't. Doctors aren't always the smartest people involved in our care...
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