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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Hello WoundedMind. He moved away from me. Thank you for your input. :)
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice..three times, four, oh hell I lost count, shame on ME!!!! Today is my day of awakening and I kicked him out of my life, bolted the door behind him and feel like a boulder has been lifted. Can't wait for the summer, new breezes of opportunity and peace...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    He is still on the up and up. I have healthy boundaries that he is respecting. I hope and pray that he continues and we can be better than ever. Self included!
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Hello. I have a very positive update to share with you. A few turns of events occurred at the end of last week - apologies, humility and forgiveness along with the return of all of my things!!! I was so happy to be reunited with my stuff and the way it was returned was commendable. We talked...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Six crazy months
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Hi. Not pissed off at all. Appreciate the honesty from Everyone here. Yesterday he kept poking and prodding me and I spilled my guts with a few major reasons why I left and cannot be with him. His reply? No big deal he can fix this and that. I'm not buying into his games and I really now think...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    yes something very important is there. I love the shoes but there are more out there for me. And I should get my stuff back absolutely. I am going to call non emergency and see what my rights are and get assistance.
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    I Can't Function This Way Much Longer

    Hey. I am in your boat with the killer schedule. I carve time out for myself. And by that I mean being bold and planning when I get to spend time with I. I stretch, I exercise. Not as much as I want to, but enough that I feel and look good. I watch funny and adorable you tube videos...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Hi. I received a message today that just said "why are you doing this" I replied to him and said I wrote it in the email that I sent twice. Losing respect for this man now, but staying calm. I will report him if he keeps harassing me. I also have a few key items that I need to retrieve...
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    So What Kind Of Response Do Sufferers And Supporters Want?

    When he told me he went to the VA and had a productive meeting, and I could see him energized and positive, that was music to my ears and eyes.
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    I did not receive any more messages through the night. Is he alive? I do not know, and I am saying a prayer for him again today. Thank you all.
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    I agree with you Friday. He's throwing every trick in the book at me to get me to engage. Not the suicide one at this time. I hope he doesn't. He has tried before we met. I realize more and more that I have no business being involved with him. He is vulnerable and still needs a lot of...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Thank you very much. I do care for this man and he stole my heart. I wanted so much for us to be together. Please say a little prayer for him as well, just pray for KP. Thank you.
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    He continues to call and text. I do not know where he is. I am home, and my roommate is as well. There is a lock on the front gate and we will call the cops should he pull into the driveway or come to the house. I wrote him an email short but very clear that this relationship is ending and...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    He has called and texted me more guilt ridden messages and then said he was coming over. I told him I would call the police if he did. He's drunk and huge and very powerful and I will not have him at my door without an armed officer. At what point can I tell him he is harassing me and bullying...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    It's a pattern. I see it now. I didn't before. He is rude obnoxious and I leave when that happens, as I did last night. I checked my phone and sure enough like clockwork he texts me that he's drunk and depressed and it's the anniversary of some combat comrades death. and that he's perfectly fine...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    I am safe. I'm out enjoying the fresh air right now cleaning my truck. I will Meet my roomate back at home in a bit. Thank you for sharing. I have lost two important people in my life to suicide. It makes me sick to have it used as a wagering tool. Sick. I'm sorry you witnessed this first hand...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Thanks for your notes of kindness here.
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    His texts are mean. Why would I want to be with someone who instead of giving space as requested, would rather try to down me? However, I am not ready to say the words to him. I'm vulnerable and now feel like I'm hiding. I will NOT reply to his nasty messages. He may be drinking and I have...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Yes, PTSD Bi-Polar. Managed with meds and therapy for a year and a half...when he takes them and is honest with his therapist. Since our short courtship he has shared that he lies to the therapist and is very negative about the group sessions. His negativity and constant contact/engagement is...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    As the minutes pass, my logical thoughts are returning to me. I need space to think and draw strength to say my true and final goodbyes. I'm nervous with his behavior - it can be erratic and frightening, but it is no excuse as a tactic to get me to engage with him in any way. He has no...
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    Repeated Cycle, I Am Losing Myself.

    Hello. I need advice, and support please. It is clear to me, so clear, that I cannot continue to be in a relationship. This is fresh, this realization...well, it isn't the first time but I have stifled and stuffed it down until today. I love him so, he is such a spark and we zing and zang so...
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    News Study Reveals Sexual Appeal Of War Heroes

    I'll admit to finding my Marine irresistible. His politeness, intelligence and speech makes my heart go all a flutter. He's one of the most gorgeous men I have ever met. Not because he is billboard ready, or has a body of Adonis, but because he is a genuine soul that fills my mind with...
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    Anxiety/panic Attack

    Hi Debi, Sounds like you are a very sensitive individual, perhaps maybe empathic. I am one of those and have been reading and learning how to engage and dis-engage my "gifts" in every day life. You are a good soul to see your uncle through this difficult time. There are many articles on the...
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    Relationship Dating Someone With Ptsd

    Hi Pippy. Like me, and everyone that has loved and cared for another, you are human. Being a caregiver can be an extremely fulfilling role, but also a draining one. I hope your health is good, both mentally and physically. Have you seen a doctor or professional about how you are feeling...
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