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I can only hope. It just hurts with the good times we had and being engaged that he could just marry someone that fast that he doesn't even know and act like I mean nothing.

Thank you guys. I can't even figure out why I care. I tried to make a list of reasons I love him and seriously there were none.

@Milo's papa I just found out he is now marrying this person he's been with for maybe 5 weeks. We were together 2 years and getting married. To say I am devastated doesn't begin to explain it. I thought I was doing better but this just knocked the breath out of me and I can't move out of my bed...

Nope the manipulator can't handle it when they realize they are losing control over you.

That's so true. When I went off on him the other day and treated him like he treated me he was shocked and actually apologized.

Thank you. I have days of being angry at them. Then it goes away and the deep hurt comes back. For months I couldn't get out of bed. I would cry or stare at walls all day. I'm very thankful that I have a great therapist now that is helping me see where all this comes from and why I'm trying to...

I'm sorry. I get angry, then feel bad and ask forgiveness. I need to forgive myself for my mistakes and stop being angry at me. I think I'm more angry with myself then with the ones that I allow to destroy me.

Yes, you're right. It hurts to be crushed so much though by the ones we love the most. My therapist told me the other day how incredible my loving heart was and she said it's rare, but I said I hate it bc it just leaves me ripped apart. I've chosen the broke people for so long that I have no...

@Whispering_Truth You do exactly what I do, but I think people see me as vulnerable bc I am nice and caring almost to a fault. And trusting. It makes me want to give up altogether.

@Whispering_Truth I may have your long list beat! LOL. I've never picked a good or kind person but they are always charmers to begin with and I get snowed every time.

@Whispering_Truth You have no idea how badly I want that. All I've ever known is abusive relationships. Through counseling I've figured it out and I now know what it's like to have a healthy relationship. Prayers for us both.

@Whispering_Truth oh he's a charmer. It'll come out soon with his alcohol abuse and inner anger that is so out of control. I actually feel bad for her because she is so much younger than him and he will destroy her too

@nursenurse Thank you. I suffer from anxiety, severe depression and PTSD. My dr, trying new things with my meds out me on Prozac one month ago and I truly believe that's the downward spiral. I can be in a totally normal mood and then lose it for no reason. I'm going next month to CA to have...

@nursenurse the depression over this man is gone. Just pure curiosity how someone you thought was one person is the exact opposite seemingly overnight. I've been in therapy and irking on me and I can say for the first time in years, I am happy with me. It just seems like daily I find out more...

Thank you @FridayJones @Sweetpea76 @NoWhereKnowWhere. I am not holding onto any hope. After 2 years of never giving up, I am so done. I was just curious. I truly feel bad for the girl bc at 20 years younger and quite immature from what I've seen she has no idea what she's in for and I truly feel...

@NoWhereKnowWhere i know. I'm trying my hardest. Truly I am. He can tell me constantly to never contact him again and the next day he acts like nothing happened. Then if I say to him that I need to cut ties, he gets angry and tells me "you did this!" Then his anger escalates and instead of...

So last time I posted it was about my guy cheating with 2 people while lying to me. I don't want him back, but I am still extremely hurt. So as much as he said he didn't want a "serious relationship" when this all began in March, yet we never really stopped being a couple, once the cheating...

@Milo's papa Thank you. I completely agree. He has to face his ish around me but not his "surface friends" as I call them who know nothing.

@Sweetpea76 Your response had me laughing. He is a douche and doesn't take responsibility for anything he does and wants to then complain how I act to his actions. To all of you that responded, thank you. I realize now the emotional abuse he was causing me and I'm slow,y coming out of it...

I finally came to my breaking point. Things had been so good and I hadn't been here to post. Then one day I get a text asking if he and I were together. It was a "friend" that I knew he spent time with. Through our texts I found out he had been sleeping with her for 3 months. Devastated doesn't...

@spmitchell3 I get. My guy is starting EMDR therapy and I am so thankful. I want him to be ok for him because I know he needs that before we can ever be ok together. It's a big step for him to seek the therapy.

@Simply Simon that makes total sense! Even though he has combat PTSD, his ex wife was verbally, emotionally and a few times physically abusive to him. He has said before he is afraid of another failed relationship. He knows we haven't failed and I've never given up on him or us but I can see...

@Mac80 I totally understand. It's obvious that we are in a relationship, I just think for him to say the actual words is stressful on him. I'm ok with it really, because I know we are together. I just don't want him to be afraid of saying it bc he doesn't have anything to fear with me. When I...

I've been on a few dates and he has flipped out and said he can't handle it. He asked that we should go a week without talking in anyway but then couldn't do it and said he needs me with him and to be a part of his life. I know what is in his heart and I am ok with a label not being there as...

i am happy with the way things are and have been with my guy. We are together almost daily now and I sleep over at his place pretty much 6-7 nights a week. We go out to eat, cook together, are around my friends, everything a couple does, BUT he still says we aren't "together" as in a...