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On Tuesday, I'm starting an intensive six week program. I'm assuming it'll have different types of therapy, but I'll find out soon enough. I guess the problem I'm having is looking at the person in the mirror and recognizing him. I used to be fun. Fearless. Even in the face of danger. Two...

As some of you may know, I've been dealing with severe levels of dissociation and possibly DID as well. Thanks to a certain member that has consistently told me that I should consider inpatient treatment and that my levels of dissociation are serious, I took a good look at how much I needed help...

At the moment, I'm more lonely than I've felt in a long time and the situation confuses me. So much that at times, suicidal ideations give me the happiness and satisfaction that asking for help doesn't give me. After having so many bad therapists, I finally have a good one. The issue with this...

I find that therapists do that because they know you'll talk when you're ready. My therapist does this and it first it got to me. After a month, I realized I would just start talking sooner and ended up having to be more open and social and so she started being like that too. She still does it...

@ShamrockChalk, welcome! I hope you find the community helpful. I have the same exact sensations you're referring to, actually -- and I'm quite glad I'm not the only one who gets those sensations, so now I know I'm not alone. My abuser did lots of things to me at age 7 and one of those things...

That sounds quite scary, I'm sorry that you're having new flashbacks (but it's a good sign!). I've had experiences like that. I was in a happy and healthy place and I thought what I remembered was the last of it -- until it wasn't and I remember details I never wanted to be true, but ultimately...

It's definitely possible that the specific medications you're taking are making you feel worse or they are having fluctuating results. Are these medications relatively new? Is it possible that your body needs time to adjust? If anything, maybe tell your doctor this and maybe your doctor can give...

That's a tough thing to hear! I'm sorry for your friend and I'm sorry to hear that it's been on your mind a lot. Being the one in abuse situation as child, for me, it's a little different because I often get stuck in a specific year. I pull myself out of it by distracting myself from thinking...

He sounds amazing! Like others have said, not many therapists would admit their mistakes and he seems really genuine, wise and compassionate. He's a keeper!

Wow, that's one scary experience, I'm really sorry to hear that! I'm not 100% sure if it's related to Prazosin as being one of the side effects, but I know that with PTSD sometimes people experience sleep paralysis. I know I did for a while, actually -- and at first, I thought it was the...

I was SA at the age of 7 for six months while also being emotionally abused and drugged. I don't have a sex life, as any time someone is remotely intimate with me, I get triggered, dissociate and get defensive and angry. This probably answers the coping question, as it is how I cope -- so long...

I was diagnosed with did but i'm quite confused about the stage of DID. Generally I'm a self aware person. I can communicate my alters but they know they are alters. How is that possible? They tell me things like I created them and I need them or they are stronger than me and can handle more...

I have been diagnosed with PTSD among other things like D.I.D. It is nights like these that frighten me the most; it is ironic what I find frightening and I would just like to know how people cope and even help themselves understand that it isn't over. Reading back on threads I notice my level...

The cost of therapy can definitely be frightening. Fortunately, I have insurance -- but when I checked my portal on how much was being spent, it was roughly $400 a week on therapy.

@CaitMiller, thank you for sharing all of that, I know it could not have been easy! You've been through a lot, your resentment towards your mother is understandable. Employment and living a functional life is something that's very, very difficult but not impossible to maintain, with mental...

I have been diagnosed and living with DID. In the slight chance of making myself seem sad and pathetic it seems I often turn to my alter. What do I do? I'm not sure... it depends on the situation. Perhaps watch a light-hearted comedy, take a walk outside, go out to eat. Or I get really...

I think you should keep talking about it. I'm sorry that you experienced a trauma -- and although I understand it's difficult, I believe that it's what therapy is for. To keep talking about it, keep pushing through the pain. If anything, take a breather or two, have your therapist calm you down...

@SheilaKathy, thanks for sharing! It really depends on the severity of PTSD and the person, honestly. I hear voices --- and most often times, they are either protective of me or tell me to off myself and tell me exactly how I should do it. The ways "the voices" tell me these things are honestly...

Thanks for the responses! I've already done tests to rule out Epilepsy and they said I was neurologically fine. I emailed my therapist all of this. Not the chat but what I wrote. I can't say I'm not in feat or anxious. I've never been honest with a therapist before.

I haven't told my therapist yet, mostly because I've just not gotten over my fear in trusting one but lately, it seems these Blackouts are worse each time they happen. I could be sitting in front of my computer and I'd zone out with my eyes open, kind of like I leave my own body. I kind of just...

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, Borderline and I believe some form of Schizophrenia (meaning it's not very intense but I do have it) and it gets bad sometimes. I've worked in many different jobs before; some big tech corporations and also as a journalist. Some small jobs as well. I don't mean...

First and foremost, I'm sorry to hear the difficulty you're facing! I know you feel though, my doctors claim the same thing. "I see nothing wrong with x and y. You're in good health." However, my T was the one that knew all of my physical symptoms and hair falling out was in fact because of PTSD...

Hi guys, It's been a while since I've logged in and posted, but I'm able to be back now to participate. I went to the therapist I wrote about previously, pursuing DBT. She's great. I'm finding it helpful. I am comfortable with her, however I'm going back into the hiding state. Some of you may...

Dissociation. I know it's not a good thing, but sometimes trauma makes your brain hurt so much, dissociation scratches that part of your brain that doesn't allow good to exist without condition. You just are -- in my experience, I'm zoned out so there is no emotion while in that state -- it's...

Thanks for the reply everyone. I'm not going to call my therapist or anything, as much as I want to, it's not something I could ever imagine doing. My mind blocks it out any time I try asking for help. Regarding the cameras: I used to be a network security professional for several companies and...