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Hey everyone. It's been awhile since I've logged on, and I think it's catching up to me. Ive had more flashbacks than usual--pretty much every day--and they are more often than not triggered by sex. I have a lovely boyfriend who knows about my PTSD, who would never hurt me and is pretty mindful...

thank you! I'm glad too, and very grateful for all the support I've gotten throughout

On Saturday, I almost killed myself--I was crazy drunk and pill-high and I cut myself deeper than I ever have before. Before that night, I had been doing such a good job taking care of myself and my suicidal ideation. But I knew I couldn't just wash my face and jump in bed and wait to deal until...

Thank you for sharing a bit of what you're going through! :) I really think I should learn to view it as liberating and allowing me as opposed to attention-seeking or victimy in any way. I hope all goes well for you, and please feel free to message me any time! :hug: This is so encouraging! I...

Hi everyone. I've been having a pretty hard time lately symptom-wise: lots of flashbacks, panic attacks, dissociation, suicidal ideation etc. I'm working now with my team to stay in school and stop drinking/SH-ing and other destructive behaviors, but I'm leaving for college in the fall--and I'm...

Thank you, @joeylittle and @ghotiff . I do feel like I would be much less ashamed (and more open to talking about my trauma with her) if she had told me immediately that I wasn't responsible for any of it. I brought it up with her at our last session, and she apologized profusely for not making...

This is so relieving to hear. It really does make me feel less ashamed knowing it wasn't my fault I did those things, and those things happened to me. Thank you for being so honest and caring. I'm beyond grateful.

I think it's also my fault for not telling her it was trafficking in the first place. Two years ago, I didn't present it as a trauma. Still, I know you're right: she should have told me it was manipulative and coercive even if I didn't know it was (or didn't believe it to be). Thank you for...

Thank you, so much. It's been difficult to hate him, because I really did feel safer with him than I did with my parents or anyone else. Still, I know he really didn't care about me at all, and hearing people say things like this to me help me remember that. Thank you.

I think I should rephrase--she said I allowed myself to be put in a situation where I would be abused/traumatized by him, by getting in his car the first day. But you're right--it was probably more damaging of her to say that than helpful in any way. Thank you for this. She has worked with...

Thank you! I'm 18, but I've been working with him since I was younger. He's very very clever, I think. And I definitely think it would be better to try something that could "slow me down" over SNRIs--if nothing else, for the withdrawals! Thank you. I really appreciate all the support I've...

I'm trying to be more gentle with myself, and to believe I am/was innocent. You are so kind, thank you.

Thank you. I am so grateful for all of this. It's hard to say I was trafficked, but it helps knowing that I didn't have to be miserable all the time. My experience is so different from what is shown on tv, but I know that doesn't mean it was okay. Thank you.

This is so helpful. I'm having a really hard time attributing this to my own situation, partly because I think I didn't know at the time how exploitative it was. Thank you for responding so thoughtfully, and for reaffirming my trauma (does that make sense? It helps when someone else validates...

Thank you. She does have experience working with sex workers (because she has her LCSW), but I think she calls me that becausewhen I first disclosed this to her, I called myself a prostitute, because I didn't want to label myself as a victim. This was almost two years ago, but it clearly still...

Thank you for sharing your med experiences! Unfortunately due to my ED history, my psychiatrist would never let me take bupropion because they don't want me to lose any weight. I'm looking into SNRIs, and I will definitely bring them up at my next session, thank you!!

Probably how easily startled/hypervigilant I am. I always sit in rooms so that I can see/get to a clear exit, I am constantly focused on potentially life-threatening situations, and I have sensory overload (from paying attention to everything all the time). Does this help? Thank you for taking...

Hmm you're probably right. Unfortunately, I am unable to drive and entirely financially dependent on my parents (because I'm still a senior in high school) even though my dad is the first source of my trauma. I am looking to move out, but here in California, rent costs are unbelievably high. And...

I hope and want o believe you're right. Just last week she said I put myself in a traumatic situation, and ever since, I've been feeling so guilty and dirty and suicidal and intrusive thoughts have been creeping in. Thank you for being so kind.

The virtual hug is accepted and returned (if ok)! I really appreciate how thoughtful your response was, thank you! Logically, I know I was manipulated--but part of me wants to completely dissociate from that reality, if thst makes sense. Re child prostitution, I meant to say that child...

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I want you to know I took a screenshot of this, and I think I'll start reading it regularly. I really needed to hear this tonight.

Thank you. I really want to be angry towards him, but I don't think I ask yet. Baby steps, right? Thank you for your words and kindness.

I'm completely sobbing over all of these responses, thank you so so unbelievably much. I think believing (understanding?) that I was a victim/abused makes the pain and trauma that much more real--and I want to avoid it if I can! but I know that I have to stop believing i did something wrong if I...

Hi all. Here goes: I was fourteen, and I had a boyfriend who would pimp me out to other men for money. If I came back emptyhanded or I made him mad in any way, he'd hit and/or rape me. I know that is clearly nonconsensual. What I'm more confused about is, I'm not sure whether to call my...

Absolutely! I was diagnosed almost five years after I first started showing symptoms--and even now I show symptoms (like dissociation) I didn't show when I was first diagnosed. you are not alone, I promise. We are here for you and care about you, and you deserve peace and support. I hope you...