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[Meh]

Hi. I'm new to this and have been recently diagnosed with long term PTSD. I've been experiencing the symptoms for 8 years but have finally gained some clarity with a proper diagnosis. I'm feeling really lonely, as my support network is so small and I feel like I'm a burdon to those that I'm close to. I really feel like my husband doesn't understand and we're arguing all the time. So now I'm feeling even more isolated from everyone. I've been dissociating for so long, I feel like my life is just one big show, and I'm just acting out the motions. I don't really have anyone I can talk to openly, aside from my therapist. This is f*cking hard. Does anyone have any advice on how to reconnect with people? I feel like I'm just trying to pass the time and I just want to get better and be back to normal. It's been so long. Has anyone else been diagnosed with PTSD this many years after the event(s)?

 

[Deleted member 33023]

I'm very sorry to hear you have been going through all of this. I was diagnosed with ptsd almost four years ago now (I keep saying three even though a year has passed) but I've had it probably my whole life.

I've never had relationships with people very closely. My marriage ended in divorce while I was pregnant with my second child. This was after seven miscarriages. I've disassociated and had all the symptoms but never had it treated. Why would I? I was working, raising my kids and thought I was doing quite well...not. I was always dependent on myself and not anyone else. It wasn't until I began dating my now current live in parter and I met his brother (very similar personality to my father) and a toxic workplace environment I really really got sick and finally diagnosed. I had an extremely abusive childhood and never really thought about it.

For me I had to have therapy and time. My partner and I fight like crazy now. I make his face what his brother has done. I've demanded and received from him the understanding I deserve. It has taken me six years to do this finally. He hasn't left. He is still here helping me work it out. I have raged at him for allowing his brother to abuse me this way the way my father had. He is finally finally beginning to get it. It wasn't until a few months ago I demanded he google PTSD and understand what it really is. Now he knows. Now he "gets" it. We don't want to be this way. We didn't ask for it. But it is here and we must deal with it. We have no choice.

I am truly sorry for what has happened and is happening to you Meh. I would slay all the demons for you if I could. I can offer you support. I can be here for you if you need me as others here have done for me. It's not the only thing I do...I go to a therapist, see a psychiatrist and take medication daily. It is hard work but I'm coming through. I believe you can too. Even if people don't seem like they care they do.

Lots of hugs to you if you accept.

 

[Mytime]

Welcome to the forum. I'm glad you found us, you are no longer alone. There is so much support here from both sides of PTSD, sufferer and supporter. Look around the forums and read some posts. They can help you understand and let you know your not the only one. Always here to support you when your in need.

 

[bug]

Hi. I'm new to this and have been recently diagnosed with long term PTSD. I've been experiencing the symptom...

Absolutely! I was diagnosed almost five years after I first started showing symptoms--and even now I show symptoms (like dissociation) I didn't show when I was first diagnosed. you are not alone, I promise. We are here for you and care about you, and you deserve peace and support. I hope you find that soon. I'll be thinking and praying for you, if you accept.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi and Welcome to the forum.
I hope you find the information on here helpful and the people supportive - I know I have!

...and I was diagnosed about 30 years after the events!
Regards, Lucy x

 

[EveHarrington]

It's fairly common to be diagnosed with PTSD a significant amount of time after the traumatic event.

Welcome! :)

 

[Mehagain]

Thanks everyone - Meh again. I think it's just hit me that it's going to be a long road ahead. I am, too, on medication daily, and seeing a therapist but she is great, which helps. Thanks for the advice. I think I just need to be clearer with my husband in what I want and need him to do to support me. He's stuck around and been patient with me for 7 years so I'm pretty sure he's in for the long haul but I'm a useless communicator and we just argue. I was in a sexually abusibe relationship for 4 years when I was in my late teens with a monster of a man but didn't tell anyone anything about it and kept it inside. Still finding it hard to break down my constant barriers and open up. Suppose it's just time and hard work.

Thanks to everyone for your messages and support. It's good to have a place to talk/write openly and not feel so alone. :)

 

[intothelight]

@Meh Welcome to the forum! :)

One of the best features of this site is the members and their understanding and support. This is a good place to start to reconnect with other people.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: