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Welcome and my sincere empathies for the loss of your loved one. In my humble opinion, this site alone is not enough, no site would be. But along side therapy or professional help it can be a very useful tool and support system. Night's when you may be feeling too isolated, alone or confused...

Probably a release, but, the suicidal thoughts have creeper back in recently. I suppose I'm better aware at the very least, and maybe it won't he as often. ..who knows.

I'm now mentally petrified of my dog losses, I have 4 currently. If I don't stop myself at night, I'll suffer chest pain and anxiety attacks thinking about it. I simply have to stop the negative thoughts, I have to use the in this moment mentality, not think of tomorrow, not think of next...

Thanks Anthony, I've seen so many suicides over the years.. gives me a different hindsight appreciation now on why they might have done it.

Well, dozens lol....but every animal in the area just moves in...we're the it place. But yes I agred, I think survival tasks seem to be better than nothing. Repairs on house, animals, for me fitness, employment or school at least...all things towards being more secure or safe.

Welcome from way up North....this site to me, is like Google for ptsd.

Thanks Joey, excellent points.....never knew those factors. I thought it all seemed a little too easy. My biggest fear resides in the fact that I don't really recall consciously doing anything. But I'm much more vigilant now, I'll mention if I feel even the slightest bit concerned. But...

Thanks for reply shecat, I really appreciate the security that it can catch others off guard as well. I always told people over the 7 years before this that suicidal ideation were just normal? They just creep in like an insidious fog.... but I could shake myself out of it. This time I...

Im a wee bit perplexed actually, so I'd thought I'd see if anyone else had the same occur. About a month plus ago, I made a suicide attempt, but it was a really subconscious, almost robotic event. It wasn't a clear, conscious decision which is a bit worrying, but regardless, my wife never went...

For me...animals. 4 dogs, 4 horses, 2 pygmy goats,177 barn cats......I care about them more than myself... so it seriously helps. I also do my workout first thing in am. It I essential for my survival really, so I have motivation to get up. I totally crash around 3 or 4 pm, but I do what...

Welcome, glad you found your way here.

Welcome Bonbon, and my sincere empathies for the loss of your loved one in that manner. I attempted emdr and found it simply didn't work for me at all. Mind you I hid my condition for years in the cause setting, so the condition was deeply set. I've heard many others who had success with...

I gotta say, that's a tough spot. I suffer, my wife might as well (we were both military/ first responder etc) but she's way to stubborn to ever get help. We've had way ups....way downs....but so far 16 years along, we still have each other's backs. For what it may help, she went to the...

I'm a bit luckier in that my conditions were resulting from workplace, so that it would be illegal to fire me based on the shortcomings that resulted... I'm not certain, but if you have, or can get your condition verified by a doctor, is it possible to provide documentation and your sincere...

Welcome Eliza, terrible you had to witness such a thing, and as I write this I have the UK in my thoughts and prayers yet again. I hope you can get to a professional to assist you.... you deserve it. I wouldn't be too hard on yourself for following your bodies reaction....all that adrenaline...

Good article, interesting read. I no longer even about mental vs physical care mind you. Asthma, severe acid reflux, extreme fatigue and soreness, ..burned out neural receptors, damaged neural links.....all physical damage, just different effects.

I felt that way for years, still do....because theres such damage to the mechanism of pleasure or enjoyment. I made a suicide attempt recently though, and I only half remember doing it. My wife knew something I didn't because she never went to work and went to the local police detachment...

I'm completely preoccupied with it. I've seen enough deaths, or dead folks... but I don't think that is the cause. Loss of working dogs did it mostly, and this condition just seems to make things ultimately seem pointless in the end, which exasperates it. I dread falling asleep when it's...

I hear you loud and clear, very sorry youre struggling with that heavy of a weight on you. If it's any help, just do your best to ride this wave out. I just came out of a 2 month depressive period, and I think I have a bit of a second wind? For me time gets to decide when I come up for...

Welcome batty, unfortunately I have to agree that SOMETIMES the condition can be permanent, although that doesn't mean you can't improve it, or find ways to persist or thrive in some areas. Hopefully yours won't be with effort and good treatment. I don't believe that I'll ever be near 100%, but...

I checkout in general from people....My wife can be equally a headache sometimes, she's just stubborn lol. But we learned to navigate over time, so we actually function ok. I shut off from all family friends but when I can, I reach out to the 2 brothers I actually like. I generally have no...

Welcome bookish, glad you are benifitting fom emdr....I hate it lol.

Not sure when you say counsellors, but you should do everything in your control to see an expert in the field....You deserve it. You're best off seeing a good psychiatrist, or experienced psychologist at the minimum..... The counsellors I was first directed to told me I was just fine, so I...

So happy for your progress, and happy to have you here.

Fortunately you're going to have a whole whack of people who will understand, welcome Cheyanne