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Found a cheery little fact today that made me laugh whilst running through an oceanography text book...there is a sea cucumber now named after trump due to its toupe like spines and orange body colour. It also is a deposit feeder so relies on fish poop for sustenance (savage marine biologists)

The nightmares have come back with vengeance the day I get home from sea.

We could have carried more oxygen, could have transported him out of the system faster and could have provided oxygen whilst we transported him out of the situation (but this would have killed him even faster as it was all below 6m) and that we if we hadnt been exhausted (700m sprint swim) we...

Been really struggling the last few days. An inquest found that we could have done more to stop someone dying (which is kinda my KT event in the first place) and its just bowled me over. Anyone have any experience with this kind of thing, cos Im at a loss?

After nearly 2 years I finally forced myself to get back under the water today! Wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be and was kinda pleasant actually. First step towards getting back to the old times

Went back to nightmares again last night for the first time in a month i think. Kicked the wall hard enough to dent the plaster and then fell off the bed and woke up

I meant one of the guests

hes the guy from blue planet who talks about the deep sea a lot

I think it was Dr John Copley. I dont know if e said its proven or if its just some evidence

A marine ecology lecture we did a couple of weeks ago :) dont remember much else than that

I mean I think deep sea angler fish have it worse... The male is about 50-70% smaller than the female. It has no digestory tract, it is in fact a living pair of male genitalia. The males only role in life is to reproduce (it has about 2 weeks to do this before it starves)...unfortunately this is...

Did you know that if all life on earth, and every single piece of matter dissapeared, except for nematode worms, we could still make out the surface features of the planet, the position of every single car, building plane. Even the shape of animals could be seen, even identified by the parasitic...

Found out this interesting little thing: theres a point in the ocean that is impossible to explore. It is around 2500 metres down in the Kermadac trench in the pacific. Every single ROV (remotley operated vehicle) that has been sent there has failed to return... The cause: Its a giant squid...

I have a really really good therapist who's ex ambulance, so she really understands. Been dosed up with paroxetine as well

lot of incident reports and messages on my laptop and phone

drop it over the side of a boat at 11°18'60.00" N 142°14'60.00" E (also known as the challenger deep, the deepest point in the ocean). This way the immense pressure that is around the weight of 80 well fed rhinos would crush it into a singular point where it cannot be compressed anymore then it...

my best friends did (I knew him for about 13 years), and it sucks for about three months, didn't help anything at all (I should say I told a lie to him to hide what was really going on). Then after that I decided that he was just a bit of a jerk (totally didnt understand any mental health...

I can't agree with you more, but I think a lot of people feel the crap for not being able to do anything to prevent rather than dealing with the aftermaths. But yeah, I guess thats how I function

I carry a plastic card in my wallet with exactly what happened on the day written down but it just doesnt seem to work anymore

I dont know. I havent been properly effected (other than temporary issues) by other recoveries, where if anything i was even more helpless because they were dead when we got there. But yeah, it could be as I absoloutley hate being helpless in any situation. My therapist thinks its also a self...

I have always had rule 1 and also sods law (whatever can go wrong will go wrong) and I've always believed in both as strongly as I believe that the Earth is round, but even with these I cant shake it

It was someone who was normally on the team but not on that callout as he was the person involved. In my line (cave diving rescue and search and rescue) im pretty good with dealing with death and bodies and Im guessing thats why this one messed me up so much

Its two years tomorrow since everything went wrong for me. I know nothing that day could happen differently in the circumstances given, and it was just a series of events that led to someone dying. I still blame everything that happened on me as the rescue dive team leader. I cant look myself in...

I think waking up in hospital doesnt help the case either

Multiple pain meds (about five of them, morphine, codeine, cocodemol and I cant remember the rest), coagulants, anticoagulants and other transfusion drugs, and then paroxetine as well