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I did EMDR for ~7 months a few years ago and it helped some. Actually feel doing it myself at home helped as much as in office. Don’t think I was ever really able to fully relax and let myself go in an office setting….I liked the therapist but there always was some underlying “scanning for...
Considering myself a recovering catholic, I find there is no such thing as unconditional love in religion.
Case in point…they get one elected president then have a big discussion to deny him sacrament because of his views.
@Rosebud guess I still come back to the non-ptsd perspective. When trauma starts in early childhood finding that authentic self has been very difficult, and through healing, being able to see both sides of the coin as it were, ptsd and non, gives us a perspective that truly only we know.
As an...
Thank you Rosebud, it makes perfect sense.
I like this idea as I find I’m able to get more glimpses of a non-ptsd perspective, but times like this make it challenging. But not too long ago I didn’t think it possible.
Thanks for your insight Friday. Yes, it did occur to me her response seemed a bit tit for tat and she made no allowances. Was she dissociating at the second call?
I would think she would need a foundation of secure attachment to process the first call….how many of us here have that?
A positive...
Not sure, she was pretty closed off when we talked the second time.
I have not had any luck opening up about what happened, the dissociation, in the past but want to give her the benefit of the doubt. Or at the very least try to let her know it’s not her….who knows what scenario someone might...
I met a women while camping and seemed to connect, she also has a trauma history.
We communicated back and forth for a month and decided to talk on the phone.
As soon as I picked up the phone I dissociated. I became matter of fact, monotone, disconnected and don't pick up on cues.
Realizing what...
Hi Livi,
I want to applaud 👏🤗 you for taking responsibility as you heal. In time it will help your daughter that you are taking control of your life. I think most PTSD survivors would welcome what you are doing. I’ll never get that from my parents.
I’m into therapy for 10 yrs and the PTSD...
I tested “positive” for Aspergers a number of years ago before going down the CPTSD route.
I believe both can test similar and have come to the realization that lack of attachment and socialization from the PTSD are at the root of my irregularities.
Thanks, been in and out of therapy but think may give EMDR another go at it.
Will have to work on a script...I'm generally open about it, but people look at u a little off when you tell them your still working out the fact that humans can be a source of comfort.
It will be 10yrs in October I started my healing and still dissociate in highly charged, interpersonal situations.
This last time I was camping in a festival atmosphere and was flirting, eye contact, with a woman. We talked a little and took a selfie together. Our eyes met...I could feel her...
Wow, sorry your trouble having so much trouble finding something.
FWIW...I did the merry go round with the drugs but have been on Trintellix, vortioxetine, for a while and am really happy with it.
I’ve used it for years with success to help ease the feelings of anxiety and relax.
One thing about the paranoia episodes some people experience, as I use to occasionally, when consuming the cannabis medicine...it tends to lower blood pressure, which in turn raises the heart rate and strength...
After similar things have happened to me I’ve come to appreciate the fact that I am highly sensitive...as 20% of humans are and 20% of individual species.
The Highly Sensitive Person
One might call it ESP or just our brains taking in, and processing, more information than the other 80%. We feel...
I’ll share a story I look back on and laugh at
At that same age I discovered masturbating would relieve anxiety and allow me to “feel” something.
Parents confronted me, given we were catholic and nothing was ever talked about, they handed me a book from the church on the subject and it was...
I have cPTSD and a chronic arthritic condition since ~20, now 60. Fused spine and neck. The emotional pain has been FAR greater than the physical pain I have endured. And the emotional pain has led to my feelings that death is an option to end the suffering, even as I make a slow recovery.