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I've held back from commenting because I truly understand where you are at and that my words won't matter. But maybe it will help a bit to know other people have walked the walk and made it (although battle-scarred and not always perfectly balanced) to the other side.
I am a firm believer that...
The reason I am alive today is because I lived a big portion of my life just as you are - a dissociated robot. You don't have to exist that way. Get help. Talk to people here. It won't happen fast, but it can happen. 💜
Life is always changing. So are our emotions. Fifteen years ago I was desperately suicidal and came ridiculously close (within moments) of completing my plan. Fast forward to today - life is different. I am different. My thoughts and outlook are different. I am grateful I was able to experience...
I'm going to keep everyone here WAY happy and stay out of this discussion of "what" faith is, but can I pose another aspect of it? What about someone who "lives" their faith? And no, I'm not referring to me, although I do have someone in mind. I think faith in action - alive - instead of an...
In Order:
Faith
Family over ego, job, friends etc.
Compassion
Intelligence (yes, I am a snob)
Fabulous sense of humor
Up-to-date on current events, world events and politics
Generosity
Self confident without being self-centered
You said you were isolated due to having kids. Depending on how old your kids are, my children were my doorway to my new friends and finding my support network back then. I got married directly out of college, moved away from university friends and also moved several states away from family and...
My father was a narcissistic, cruel, abusive (in every way possible) monster who ruled with an iron fist. He was a dictator, a terrorist, and a Bully. I was terrified of him. How could that not leave a person traumatized and broken? I couldn't even pray because I was taught that God was our...
Melting chocolate.
When we visited Hershey, Pennsylvania when our kids were young I made them all stand out on our hotel balcony and breathe in the smell of chocolate in the air. Sensory bliss!
All the weird greenhouses I made in my kitchen worked! The seeds are growing beautifully. We can't really walk through the kitchen or eat at the table, but we'll just have to live with that temporary inconvenience for a couple of months. 🌱🌱🌱
I will not tell you how many years I've danced with the Dragon, but I began at the age of 18 and I am now a mother of four and a grandmother of eleven. My dancing shoes should have worn out long ago. I always view the dance very much like alcoholism. I can live with "sobriety" for a while, even...
Think of yourself as a newly-emerged butterfly or a just-budding rose. I have a dear friend who cared for her dying narcisstic husband for 20 years. It was a long, brutal battle as caregiver, servant, nurse, maid, and emotional-abuse taker. He passed away last spring. She was lost for a couple...
I almost always wake up in a panic or greatly disturbed from a nightmare or bad dream. I've learned to immediately reach for my cat and gaze at the framed photos of my children and grandchildren. The instant reminder that everything is okay right now and my life is blessed usually calms me down.
Can I offer one caution for you to mentally prepare yourself for....this will certainly not happen, but if it does people like us need to prepare our headspace. Sometimes things just don't go as planned. In an emergency situation the best plans and hopes are discarded. Just prepare yourself...
Back when I was birthing babies no one in our county would deliver a baby by natural childbirth unless the mom went through Lamaze classes. It was mandatory - even for my 4th, and I had the hang of it by then. Mom and her "coach"(husband, partner, mom, best friend, whoever) attended 6 classes...
I've had 4 living children. My pregnancy with my oldest daughter was a roller coaster ride. We were told to abort, did NOT, were given ultrasound pics and test results showing the horror to expect, then everything changed, and we were told to expect a medically-documented miracle (the story is...