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ACE has got to be one of the least well designed screens ever. Let me go through it: 1. Did a parent or other adult in the household often or very often… Swear at you, insult you, put you down, or humiliate you? or Act in a way that made you afraid that you might be physically hurt? I was...

The Christian aspect is entirely your therapist. Bullshit may or may not be your therapist. I found Fisher (scan my other replies in this thread) to be a better approach.

There's a bunch of related modalities CBT, CPT, DBT, that at the core involve you looking at your beliefs, and finding exceptions to them, and turn black and white evaluations into shades of grey. This is helpful in turning the built up patterns that trauma laid on you into something more...

Abuse is so hard to prove. Reading up on how easy it is to create false memories, I often doubt what I think happened to me. In my case, I have kept very separate events and observations of my behaviour as I remember it, and as other people remember it. From that I try to deduce the events...

Priest: You are a sinner. Me: I am a sinner P: Nothing you do is pleasing in God's eyes M: I am disgusting to god and me P: Good works are all tainted by sin M: No point in trying then P: Faith is a gift M; And God, like my parents didn't give me anything for my birthday. Even...

I'm not a good candidate for emdr, as I have very few flashbacks or intrusive memories. EMDR from my reading works best when you have strong flashbacks that are readily triggered. I can't get better until I face these memories. I feel this in my gut. I'm at a stage that if there was a...

Replying to my own post. Things I'm trying or planning. Current: I have an alarm set on my phone to go off every hour during the night. most of the best flashes /dreams/intrusive memories have been on the borderline between waking and sleeping. Couple this with talking to my parts and...

Many people share your view. Here's my dilemma: Whatever happened, I was very good at locking it down, and out. The consequence is that most of my life I've been a slightly sad robot most of the time. I've postponed dealing with this shit for 66 years. Until I deal with it, I cannot finish...

Good points. No. I won't try to recreate the abuse to get memories, although I have a self punishment part that likes the idea. My original question still stands however. I want more flashbacks. Right now I'm running what I call a significant flashback maybe every few months. I'm not...

yeah, but hard to duplicate. And I don't know that that was the trigger. I injured the wrist in the afternoon, falling and twisting it in my ski poles. It was achey during the day, getting somewhat worse as the evening progressed. It was a winter camping trip, which means that sleep is...

It's never a contest. Really does anyone want to "win" worst mental health award? There is no scale. Some of us are less functional. But it's very possible to be fully functional, and essentially dead inside. I'm one of those. But the price of that functionality is that I've never...

Alas, my T. doesn't seem to do regression. But you have given me a new word to use in my searches. So far I haven't been able to isolate any triggers.

I am now 60. A year ago a nightmare, full of helplessness and sexual symbolism woke me. I was hours getting back to sleep. I don't have nightmares. I wrote my sister. "Did anything strange happen when I was a kid" The answer was yes. My behaviour abruptly changed when I was about 3. One...

Yeah, this is crazy. People want to get rid of these things. My reaction to childhood SA, PA, CEN was to go hypo -- block or numb emotions. This was better than the uncontrolled emo dysregulation. But I locked down for decades. I'm waking up 50 years later. I don't have lots of...