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I see. Yeah, it's hard. Good luck to you. Somehow, the opinions of people I barely know often hurt me the most.

Please elaborate.

Thank you for your replies. The countless people who caused my abuse aren't enough? That was the point of my post, it's a long series of these moments in my life. That's one of my core wounds. I know that writing "inevitably be seen as an oppressor" is an exaggeration but these attacks did...

I'm a man in my late 30s. I have CPTSD. And I feel like I've been paying for the sins of other men all my life. My mom was raised by a violent, possibly incestuous father. She is traumatized, possibly has a personality disorder and raised me with the idea that men are evil, and that they should...

Hey everyone, I've been feeling frustrated with people lately because while trying to connect to them, I often feel disconnection stemming from a sense of unequal levels of emotional maturity between them and me. Because of my CPTSD and my naturally inquisitive and introspective temperament...

Hi TheAffectee! It makes a lot of sense that explosive anger would result from your disconnection to your feelings. Emotions need to go somewhere, they can't disappear. When your nervous system pushes them down, they actually are stored somewhere. Some people experience body pains, some have...

Good luck to you arfie!

Thank you Teasel! Thanks arfie! It is not. But it was, at some point. It's just hard to replace it with something else that we've never felt.

Hey everyone, I have CPTSD from childhood and various relationship trauma. I've always struggled with letting go and being social, although I've improved a lot over the years. I'm very lonely right now so I'm trying to find ways to meet people. I had tried an improv theater class once but it...

Thanks for your words WinnieThePoohChris. I need a long break right now. I'm just scared that it will be very hard to go back to a social life after all that. I agree with you MKEPaul, I just have a hard time embodying those beliefs. Some days I'm more confident than others. It's hard to...

I tend to believe that the more abusive people see the good in you, the more they will push their negativity on you because seeing goodness makes them feel uncomfortable about their own lack of it.

I have no friends right now. When I look back at the people who have met me, professionally, friends I've tried to make, romantic relationships. Most of them have been disappointed in me or are angry at me. Of course this started with my mom, who is never satisfied and who told my siblings and I...

Paris, Parc de Bercy. I've noticed I like "portals" and doors. I've always loved this idea of "the threshold" that's often found in fairytales, when Alice goes into the rabbit hole, when Neo touches the mirror, when Ofelia goes into the tree in Pan's Labyrinth...

I don't think that was a skill or training issue. She's got all the recent certification needed, even in dissociative disorders, complex trauma and trans-generational trauma. That's what reassured me at first. I see very good reviews too so I was starting to think I'm the problem.

Thanks, I guess "complex" would be a better word, hence the name of the disorder. But I think you got my point.

Thank you Sues! That's very validating. I've read studies that show that one of the main factors that determine if a therapy, regardless of modality, is successful or not is the therapeutic alliance. And I'm just not feeling it anyway so I guess there's a reason for that. Given my attachment...

Oh la la ! 🥐 Thanks arfie! I'm glad my message resonated with you!

That's a great way to describe it! So, in the end, did it help? Did you wish you had better suited therapists?

Hi everyone! I've worked with a bunch of therapists for my CPTSD. I've had a good experience with a psychodynamic therapist who was understanding, perceptive, empathetic and an active listener. I've done EMDR too for a while but felt a bit unsafe with how clinical it felt. I still want to do...

Hi everyone! I’m a French cisgender hetero guy, from France. I've been diagnosed with CPTSD a few years ago and I've been trying to learn about it and to heal since then. I’m creative and curious, I love to learn about life and people. I like to see beauty in the small things. I enjoy ...