Recent content by Alaska_Fears

I'm pretty sure the majority, if not all, PTSD sufferers have huge parts of specific trauma missing from their memory. Like you only remember part of what happened - not before, not after. Or maybe you can't remember everything that happened during the event(s). I hate this so much. I have so...

As in a flashback, of course. Normally if I start talking aloud and focus on my voice (even better if someone else is talking) then it usually stops or is mild. What about you?

I've realized that different people have different flashback symptoms. I for one normally tense up, and stare off into the distance, involuntarily shaking my head and blinking really hard. If it's really bad, my entire body starts like twitching. What about you?

For a few months now, I've been having suicidal thoughts. I always hurt the people I love. I always make stupid mistakes. I hate myself. I have a skin problem and it's ruining my life. My flashbacks are getting worse. You can tell me to seek help, I won't. I just won't. I just feel like...

Laurie, Thank you for the reply. I will be seeing a psychiatrist soon, some time in July. I also write down the experiences - what I write is more of an impulse than anything, and it's graphic, but it does comfort me.

Hello, hello. I'm obviously new here. Looking for help. From the time I was born, till about when I turned ten, I witnessed my mother physically abusing my brother many many many times. When I turned about eight or nine, my mother began emotionally/verbally abusing me. Flashbacks started when...