Recent content by Alimaria

No, unfortunately, I have lost my entire extended family as a result. I never knew much of my father's family and since he was my abuser.... All I've got are my boyfriend and my kids now.

I don't know if courage is the right word. I feel like I'm chewing off my own arm to save myself. It is unbearably painful.

Thank you for your advice. ;)

Thanks for your response. The letter more or less explains how her complacency in regards to the bedbugs "reminds" me of how she ignored my father molesting us for 16 years. I used to be able to rationalize why it took her so long to leave. I can no longer do that. I wonder if I need to be...

What are everyone's thoughts on this? The main purpose of my letter is to inform my extended family that for 2 years, my mother has been hiding that her house is infested with bed bugs. I want them to be able to take action in their homes if necessary. I absolutely feel this needs to be done...

I am late to this thread, but I'm throwing my support out there for you, @Mal Content. My husband left me 3 years ago (or 4, depending on when you start counting) for one of his faculty members. They are getting married in two weeks. Our children were 9, 6, 5, and 2 at the time. I was a stay at...

Why would would I need to see it through a different lens?

I'm so sorry for what you've gone through. You are not wrong. You are sooooooo not wrong. That is your inner child wanting your protection. I think that desire to go no-contact is sometimes a gut feeling you need to listen to with any person in life. It's the ultimate in self-care to surround...

I should have clarified. I have a place to go. We move in on Wednesday. It's small, but perfect. The moving is the final nail in the no-contact coffin. It is a little unnerving how easy it feels to eliminate them from my life.

I am in constant conflict between wanting the compliment and avoiding it. I "need" the approval, but if I get it, I feel undeserving. It's a sick mental cycle for me.

I'm grieving the heck out of my grandparents. God that hurts so bad. But they just won't see what's in front of them. I can't waste anymore energy trying.

Well, thank you. I'm trying to give it a chance. It's getting easier. I am going no contact with my entire family of origin. I know within my soul it's the right thing to do, but why do I feel like I'm mourning? I find myself thinking that I'm doing the wrong thing. I'm hurting THEM. I've...

I don't know. Scared to really let anything out at all.

Venting mostly. I don't know that I am yet able to trust anyone with too many details. My life is a roller coaster of emotional trauma. It's so hard to look at something with optimism and hope when your past is riddled with failures and hurt.

Just stressed the eff out. Three weeks ago the mega-fight happened with my mother. I am still boiling with anger and rage. I don't expect that to change anytime soon. I'm tired of fighting the ex-husband. I'm tired of him trying to get out of child support. I'm tired of the legal games. I...