Recent content by Beaglefan61

Admin, please remove the thread. It mainly shows the best way to not heal, not from how others reply to me but in how i am focused. It has too focus on the actions of another in ways to judge when not knowing reasons or when maybe there is some muddy grey areas where judgement can lead to...

Administrator, please remove this thread or at least the last post of it, thank you. Take care

One last word before going. I still wonder about gender issues and what if a male porn star followed someone onto an online game saying "i'm horny, i'm horny" then followed them into a store, all of this after the woman posted about him on her facebook saying she is confused as she thought...

Thank you Suzetig, what you say is much appreciated and maybe very very sound in reasoning. My last therapist was maybe too cognitive behavioral and too proudly so. By too proudly so challenging cognition seems to be central to CBT, but challenging events reality can be especially painful...

I came back to copy one message into my journal. Was feeling like much was pretty pointless in trying to heal from anything. Saw what you said and what you said made a difference, a needed difference. What you said about experiencing exactly what i have written may mean more to me to hear you...

Was thinking about leaving the site and simply asking for the thread to be taken down. Regarding symptoms. Flashbacks, nightmares, avoidance of the place where it happened, hypervigilance, and irritibility. As stated, my now leaving psychiatric nurse practitioner said that she always...

Sorry for this being hard to follow. It first it was a concern, but then it did become an obsession admittedly. That was based on the synchronicity, much of which was pretty hard to explain. If not for much of that i would have gone on with my life, which looks like that would have been best...

Thank you RavenGirl. Yes, i am hurting. it has been hard in that there has been more effort in trying to be believed as there has been in any actual healing. The hurts from disbelief has made things horrible. My old T was maybe trying to find too too many ways to disbelieve. More effort was...

This is long. My apology as there is an unusual story behind it all. If you make it through, maybe you will understand WHY people are having a hard time believing. Thank you all for the responses. The last couple of days i went through a ton of feelings. Sadly, i am less caring and feel less...

hard to talk, but not sure what never apologize has to do with PTSD. most of us when having any symptom cause problems feel horrible or if symptoms go into anything near psychosis or into it because we get battered down by our symptoms we feel all the more rotten for how we were. good luck...

not sure why writing. nearly no hope left. disbelieved about something so much that the pain from that has kept me stuck in pain. it was a very very unlikely event. the person with whom it happened will not corroborate it. can i get through trauma alone? hurting all the time. worn down...

Hey there Dashboard. DID can be pretty scary for some people. Dissociation can also be a matter of degree. I have parts, but all parts of me are coconscious. There is a difference between that and having alts whose memories i don't remember. For you whatever degree that is, it is so you can...

Good to hear she is really nice. She sounds concerned you not be manipulated or left alone in your pain when you are crying for help. It sounds like the nightmare you are having is pretty scary and you feel abandoned by others in it. I hope you will get the support from her and support here...

Oh on those tasks between sessions, please don't get on yourself too much if you simply couldn't to those at times. My therapist had a few frustrating moments with that at times yet didn't fully understand i was probably needing to be inpatient as i was not able to function much at all anyhow...

Flashbacks, paranoia, and lack of trust does make life go much tougher. That you are going to therapy to help ease all of that is tremendous. Getting support here is a good idea as we can all use more support and softness when things are tough going. That a different approach was tried that...