What To Do When Disbelieved?

[Beaglefan61]

One last word before going. I still wonder about gender issues and what if a male porn star followed someone onto an online game saying "i'm horny, i'm horny" then followed them into a store, all of this after the woman posted about him on her facebook saying she is confused as she thought there were things that pointed to that man but she had to give it up and go on, if there would be any difference seen by gender. My post about the celebrity was exactly that, a giving it up despite the synchronicity as i thought i was supposed to be loyal to her. There were other things which happened in the months after, but i guess my reaction is only my problem. I honestly do not know what the case would be by gender. Perhaps it is only my own sore points that has me ask in response to one particular response i had. Would it be less okay for a male celebrity to do? When i first entered my own recovery males were always seen as perps and teachers who slept with male students had the students seen as "lucky guy". From the reply i got and that two actually liked how it is, i KNOW i am in the wrong place.

Before all of this came up, i was heavily involved with helping adult survivors of PTSD and went from city to city helping others. During this time, an idea for an organization was came up with to do a non-profit specifically with the purpose of getting better funding for adult survivors of childhood trauma. Grier Weeks, the founder of Protect (that group that used to be on Oprah all the time) and the then president of the international society for dissociation disorders both thought it a good idea. I can consider myself out of that now, but if others wish to further that cause and organize, it would be a good cause. Organize.

 

[Beaglefan61]

Administrator, please remove this thread or at least the last post of it, thank you. Take care

 

[Beaglefan61]

Admin, please remove the thread.

It mainly shows the best way to not heal, not from how others reply to me but in how i am focused.

It has too focus on the actions of another in ways to judge when not knowing reasons or when maybe there is some muddy grey areas where judgement can lead to error or the reasons may be fairly sane yet inconvenient from where i stand. It needed to keep focus on the feelings of how i felt, which was of being left alone in the truth of one, rather than any value judgements of any other which are more harmful than helpful.

My apology for the thread in that it shows how to not heal well and shows maybe a bit of an iffy state, which actually the opposite of what is needed for healing. For those who did support so well, yes i will try to find those who will listen, believe, and help me out of what cruddy state this is that has me more prone to externalized attribution. Basically, it is a paranoid state from which i need to escape and need to escape it by focus not on others actions but my response and how i am affected. I am sorry if this has upset anyone. It is like i am screaming from some 'fight or flight' state, which maybe not helpful to anyone to see.

My apology to anyone inconvenienced and my appreciation to any who did give support which was helpful. Thank you for your understanding.

 

[joeylittle]

Admin, please remove the thread.

We don't do that on MyPTSD. You were made aware of this when you joined. The thread will stay. It will drift down on the page if it remains dormant; if you'd no longer like to see it, simply stop checking it.