Recent content by becvan

Thanks Anthony! I totally agree with all that. I realized last night that I'm actually going through the stages of grieving. I was in shock for a few weeks, then really mad, now I'm in the sad/bargaining one... I thought I was ready to date but I'm not. Been crying a lot so that's a good...

Thanks Nicolette! Yes it did help. I'll just ignore it. LOL Thanks for the welcome back! How are you doing? Hi Pand! Still lost eh? ;) How ya been?

RD!!! Is that you! How are you doing? Thanks. I'm really on the fence over going back.. I was doing so well dammit! Well this really isn't about relationships anymore. It's actually about how I'm feeling about myself now and how to get back onto even footing. And how the hell to stop this bad...

Can someone explain basics of chat to me? The help articles are videos. I'm accessing internet via my data plan on my phone and videos eat up too much of that... my questions are.. can I turn it off? Is there a way to shut if off so I'm not automatically logged into it? Thanks!

Sadness, hopelessness, fury, loneliness....

This is completely normal. As you start to dig deeper in therapy, it will affect you after. It's actually a good thing. A good idea is to discuss coping techniques with your therapist. Just a quick list of ideas are: meditation, exercise, breathing exercises... I'm not sure if they still exist...

Okay I'm going to assume most on here have no idea of who I am. Have been living with managed PTSD for many years now. Generally do okay. Still can't work but that's complicated from an auto immune disease. I manage my symptoms of both and focus on the positives. Into many good things for me...

and every time the alarm goes off, you jump and then swear at it

Gotta say I love the scowl picture. LOL Overall I'm doing good. Hoping your well too! Been too long since I've been on here and seen you guys!

I had a difficult time finding my old home! LOL I had no idea the forum had a name change and everything looks so different! I have no idea what's going on. So Hi everyone! Hope everyone has been well (that I know) and that everyone new is getting around just fine on here. I'm still kicking...

Ah that makes sense. Thanks for the update. I noticed it's not used whatsoever anymore. bec

Ah same crap coming from new butts eh? hehe Sorry to hear we are back to this once again. Hope it all calms down again soon. Nice to see you two again! *waves happily* bec

This is a good thread. :) I have a bucket list but I'm not waiting around to get it done! No time like the present! Finish High School Go to and complete college Have children and raise them to be stable self loving adults Only keep healthy people in my life Learn to not be afraid of dogs...

Thanks everyone. I'm still hanging in. I'm not really improving at all and am most likely going to be put on immune-suppressants soon. Nothing else is working. I've been focused mostly on my IBD as it's a huge mess and taken over my life lately. I"m really sick of being sick at this point. UGH.

Yes I have had similar issues. I fired the sponsor. Sounds like you might want to consider the same option. A sponsor is someone who helps you in your recovery process, that includes you going to therapy for PTSD. A good sponsor would be supportive of you dealing with your other issues also, as...