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I'm on 15 mg twice a day. I was started on this in rehab ~11 mos ago, and I do think it helps. Everyone's biochemistry is so different though, especially in terms of how they react to psych meds. I hope it helps you and I would definitely try to give it a bit more time. I don't remember it...

I've been therapy long enough to understand the reasons I turned to opiates as a coping mechanism. They made me numb, they made me be able to not think about things, they made me able to get through the motions of life. Fair enough. And I realize being a mostly on again, and rarely off again...

Dear Barefoot, I can totally relate with what you're going through. I can feel your fear and anxiety, because I've felt it too in a similar circumstance. I've been seeing my T off and on for 9.5 yrs now (holy shit). He charges a lot, but I've always felt he was completely worth it. However, ~2...

Hey Pteredacted, Welcome to the forum! I hope that you will find some helpful things here. I don't trust you either, but I like you anyway. :)

Well, I've been taking Effexor for about the past 9 months and it has worked great for my MDD. Was very suicidal at the time and have improved vastly since then. I am well aware of the problems with getting off Effexor, but at least it's better than suicide. I will cross that bridge when I get...

At this point, I don't think my T would be grossed out by anything I say. But there are still things I can't speak of. Because they are too terrible. I did a great job for a long time at not thinking about the worst of it. I knew it was there, but I was not allowed to think about it. Ever. But...

Long, long before I knew anything about PTSD, I found that opiates cured what ailed me. I found that it shut up the voice in my head ("something very bad happened")... No! No! No! Don't ever think about that. EVER! Take more opiates... all better. I was a very high functioning addict for...

Hey Silver! Congrats on getting off the Klonopin!!! That is NOT easy and I understand it can have some very long lasting side effects, but the more time you put between Klonopin and yourself, I think you will see great benefits from getting off it. I hope so, anyway! I have been addicted to...

The only inpatient I've done was an involuntary commitment, so I am not at all familiar with all the paperwork and exactly what is involved. Are you waiting to hear when you are to be admitted? Do you feel like things will be delayed because you missed the phone call? Or is everything still up...

32 days clean! f*ck you, drugs!!! Flying home tonight. I miss my fiancé. I miss my dogs. I even miss my therapist, lol Finding somewhere to plug my phone in at the airport!! Now I can while away the hours on the plane playing mindless games. Got a new book to read, hope it's a good one.

I have an EXTREMELY hard time even saying words such as victim, survivor, abuse, rape, torture, although I know that objectively they all apply. My mantra is, "It wasn't that bad". Apparently I say this all the time to my therapist. Finally, after seeing my T off and on for 9 yrs, he was able...

For me it kind of comes and goes in cycles. I almost always have some kind of "homework ", so there's that. But sometimes I'm so busy with work/life, that therapy sessions go on the back burner a bit. Other times, depending on what comes up, if things are getting very intense, therapy may be all...

A hefty raise would indeed be a pleasant surprise! :) As it happens, I emailed my boss today asking for a raise (since no one is offering me one, lol)... was quite nervous to do that and equally nervous as what the outcome will be.

I am grateful for my awesome fiancé and my awesome therapist. I am grateful to be clean for 16 days. Not much to brag about, but it's a start! I am grateful I have a job and can pay the bills.

First time I've read this thread. Feelings are what I have the hardest time identifying. I spent a LONG time working very hard not to have feelings, and now I'm told I'm supposed to have them and put a name to them. I feel a little warm.