Recent content by Brokensoul88

Hi guys, it has been a long time since I was last on here, I’ve been in a very dark place for so many years but now I am coming back to the light, 10 years on from being raped I have met someone. It feels like I am in a dream because after all the hate I had for myself somehow this wonderful...

It was intentional, we have been talking about a technique called rewind technique/human givens which we plan to try in the future but way in the future so I didn't expect anything remotely like that would be tried, it was intentional but with good intentions. She knows now I won't do that...

I was discussing with my T a nightmare I had, I used to dissociate all the time when my memories started to return of my attack but it's been a long time since I've stepped out of myself. When we talked she said perhaps we need to finish the dream off (I didn't realize that meant an intentional...

Ah sorry guys I didn't word that very well, I meant she would try it on me rather than me doing it alone. I can't find much on the net about it except for a few professionals who do it and in some respects if they're trying to sell it maybe they are biased towards it so you get all the pros &...

Hi guys, a friend (who has had training) has suggested I try rewind technique. Anybody have any experience of this? She said I'm way to anxious to do it yet so need to work on relaxation first. Me and relaxation just don't go together, I have exercises to do everyday from now on to try to get me...

This is timely. I'm about to go to Dr's because after 8 years of having PCOS a friend told me that some of my unusual symptoms could result in pre cancerous cells. My trauma was before diagnosis but I'm 28 never had a smear or any sexual contact since rape when I was 20. Going with a friend to...

I've been put on an NHS waiting list for some counselling but it will be months away & my upset is that this particular T has been such a support to me, her approach is so different to any therapist and it works for me. I didn't know when it started that I couldn't extend after (it was suggested...

I have 4 free sessions left with my T and it has taken me so long to be able to trust her. I hoped there could be an extension or if I could find the money somehow see her privately. The charity said no on both counts, no extension & they have a policy where Ts cannot see people privately from...

I feel the same, I had a phone mental health interview with NHS and although my online Assesment scores were really high for anxiety & depression. She basically said you're managing to still go to work so that's good and what it felt like she was saying was, you're not off sick so it can't be as...

Handshakes, I can manage although if it's a man it's harder because you move in close to do so. So the proximity becomes an added problem. My nice colleague hugged me today because I was in a state, she knew straight away because I backed off & she looked at me & said "I know ur not...

That is beautiful and heartbreaking in equal measure. Whatever you find in the future I hope you can find peace from it even if you can't get hugs :)

Me too, since moving into my house I've had no room curtains so I have had a little streetlight trickling in. My mum made beautiful blinds but it's too dark now so it's harder to sleep. I've started keeping the blinds up so I still get a bit of light. If the night light is a pain what about...

That is testimant to her that she made you so at ease, I know a lot of people who aren't comfortable with hugs (not to my extent, but you see my point). I hope that you can find that again one day

Sometimes when I'm really worked up & in bed I hug my extra pillow, it's almost like I'm giving a hug to someone but it gives me a little comfort. Now if that was say, someone putting a blanket around me they would have to give me the blanket & I'd put it around myself. Thank you for the advice...

My T tells me sometimes she wishes she could give me a hug & comfort me because I am not kind to myself. She is such a lovely person but any physical contact I find difficult, even with friend I have known for years. I wish I could be ok with it, but even hugs make me think of 'him' at work a...