Recent content by ButterflyBoof

Yes, I would love that, Aerolock. I didn't understand that either.

Is there a way that we can exchange email addresses on here so we can be in contact more frequently?

PS...Aerolock, I can only imagine the pain you went through. My heart truly goes out to you. I see so many similarities in our stories. Thank you for sharing from your heart. I wish you all the best.

Well, holy cow everybody...I'm still hanging in there. Must be a brute for punishment. No...I'm just very much in love and can't seem to break things off entirely. I know you all know what I'm experiencing, and that everyone had a different threshold for these kinds of things. I do now have...

The fun is gone...the fight is gone...it's all gone out of me. He doesn't know I feel this deeply about things. I am not talking to him about it at length because he always talks me back OUT. This time, I am going to harden my heart little by little until I feel strong enough to leave him. I...

Hi everyone. I haven't posted in awhile. Just been trying to see how things go with my guy. Well, he is pretty adamant that he will never love me or commit to me. And since he also cheated on me, all of these things are causing me to lose interest. It's still hard to break the ties, but I'm...

@LindaFredericks Wow...Your post certainly hit home on several levels. I talked with my man about how he can be so cold, and do the meanest things and not even feel bad about it. Then turn around and be the most thoughtful, compassionate man I've ever met. He did not enjoy this conversation...

That analogy is wonderful. Thank you for sharing, Archangel. That is what scares me. I don't know about other carers, but I KNOW he won't feel the pain of loss if I leave him. That sometimes is a worse pain/fear than staying, even with all the hurt therein. I don't want to paint the picture of...

PS. SOOOO HARD to leave someone you are in love with. Not to mention, we are in business together. I want to remain his friend, but I also wish I had the guts to leave, if I so choose. Sigh. Life can be complicated.

@nicolette Pretty name, by the way. Some wise words, and I will take them to heart. I think of your last statement often. That I could have all that with someone without all the grief. So true. It is hard, though, to explain how the dynamics are between two people. Perhaps he is having his cake...

PSS LOL I'm very sorry for all you have gone through as well. Would love to continue talking with you. Seems we have a very similar man we are dealing with. I will be here for you, and will listen and care. :)

PS. I guess I wish he looked at ME and thought how lucky he is. That he should be flattered to be with ME. She may have the upper hand on looks, but would she go through all this with him? I doubt it. But anyway, I now feel like I'm Roseann Barr to her Christie Brinkley and I hate feeling so...

@lindafredericks Yes, it seems we ARE with the same man. LOL. I keep getting these emails that my grammar/sentence structure is messed up and I might be kicked out of this forum, so I will do my best. I find that frustrating since this site is so helpful to me and the others here, but I guess...

@Gizmo I think so too, but maybe it depends on many things?? I don't know, but am guessing. Maybe what caused the PTSD, the person, their upbringing etc.? Who knows. All I know is with my man, he says he doesn't feel what he SHOULD for me, and doesn't feel he ever WILL be able to fall in love...

Junebug I know what you mean about eggshells. Like the song says "the things we do for love." LOL All the best to you.