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I'm in a bind because I can 'talk' here but no one knows the history of anything to understand the meaning of any of it. But maybe it will still help, IDK........I am wondering today if when my mother was alive it gave me some sort of false idea about my connection to the world and the rest of...

Well right now I'm operating (or not, as the case may be) in a new World.. One that has no one in it, which feels very strange and with regard to some people I don't even know why that is. Most, I do. But anyway yeah IDK what to do.

Good decision. Getting traumatized again is the last thing you need. For ratings. UGH. I hope that you find good help XOXO

I agree. How does it help a person to be called a monster? That is just for ratings. Sad. I guess it's a two-edged sword. For some a really big price to pay to get help. For others it's probably not so bad and worth it. I haven't seen but one show in many years. This one was on people who have...

I can't fathom standing by while someone does that to a dog. My Dad is not a violent man at all but you can bet a man doing that around him he'd of flipped out. Actually he would have been scary calm. Hell, I would have kicked him. I'm not violent either but I can't be scary calm like my...

Yeah I shouldn't have said 100%. The reason I have such severe PTSD would be a big feature for him and he'd want to sensationalize it all. I don't think my family would ever be willing to talk to him and they certainly wouldn't go along with sensationalizing anything about the whole situation...

I don't think UPS can pick up in this case. I have to pay for postage. I HAVE to find a way to return. I am not in a position to throw away $139!

Do I make a new thread to talk about what is going on? All I like to do is sleep. I actually get mad when I wake up. When I can go back to sleep I'm like YAY! When I can tell there is no going back to sleep I get mad. It wasn't this bad when my mother was alive. She died recently which has taken...

Well, this won't be a good intro - it took a long time to get registered and now Xanax has kicked in. I have been dealing with this for ever-worsening degrees for 10 years. I keep getting re-traumatized. (details later) and losing more and more people until there are none. So the first thing...

Dr. Phil is actually brilliant. I knew him before he got famous. He sort of sold out but that doesn't mean he doesn't tell people. I would 100% go on that show to get the care I can't afford Because I need serious, deep care. Like hospital care and then after care. Probably a 90 day program...