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I wish you the best! I’m also starting EMDR after trying it a year ago. I spun out uncontrollably and it brought me back to residential. I’m a bit more optimistic because I trust this therapist more and she informed me the previous therapist did it wrong. I hope it works out for you

The dreams I experienced and the sleep paralysis was 100x worse than my night terrors ever could be. Ambien, for me, has been much much better

For me, I was a heavy pot smoker for many years and then stopped. It wasn’t until last year my PTSD was so unbearable that I decided to get my medical card. I’m not stoned all day and only pack a small bowl when I do. It calms my nerves down and helps me fall asleep. There’s all different types...

Music and cigarettes keeps me going

I didn’t know until I went to treatment and they explained my ‘spacing out’ and losing track of time was a way of my body coping. I would daydream a lot and I’d have people waving their hands in my face to get my attention. A lot of times I just felt so disconnected and just out of body. It is...

All you can do is try your best. Due to my mental health and side effects from ECT, I’m unable to work. I live with my dad and I feel very stagnant. Recently my therapist has had me start a schedule and there’s a lot of time for self care put into it. Just know there is no shame in needing to...

I feel I’m more in the position of just feeling stuck. I’m not exactly doing well, but I’m not at my worst either. I also haven’t been able to work due to memory loss from ECT, so filling up that time each day becomes difficult. The ‘what now’ feeling is a hard struggle

Sometimes I feel like a walking case of mental illness. I was diagnosed with bipolar, borderline, generalized anxiety, eating disorder, and of course, PTSD. I think the hard part for me is differentiating which one is messing with me in the current moment, but these days it’s mostly my PTSD and...

I knew I was bisexual in 6th grade and even came out to my brother. Most of my life I’ve only been with guys with two serious girlfriends. However, after my sexual abuse and assault I have such a strong fear of all men, including my brothers and dad. I also feel more strongly connected to women...

Sometimes we need that self care more than usual, there is no shame in it. It could be just watching your favorite series on Netflix or having time for that cup of coffee or tea each morning, but try to put that time away for yourself. My therapist also has me making a schedule, since I’m not...

talking in code by Margot and the nuclear so and so's

....you stare off for 6hrs in bed, and it feels like only minutes have passed

The storms and more dogs are out

Unfortunately there is no easy way to just put a stop to the night terrors, but I will say trauma therapy has helped me a lot. I still wake up during the night a few times, but I’m no longer waking up in a full blown flashback. My therapist also suggested to just get up and do something right...

I’ve struggled with an eating disorder as a way of control since I was very young due to trauma. I restrict and weigh myself multiple times a day. I’ve been told to meal prep and exercise lightly as a healthy way to control, but sometimes I take it to the extreme. There is always that root for...