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Thats really shit Kris! I dont blame you for felling the way you do! Its not really fair that you are getting threatened when you are at a low point. I reacon you should rant all of this to your T and say you would feel more comfortable trying a different P. Ive only tried 1 and im not that...

It does sound messed up huh?! I think it depends on the therapy, its EMDR thats playing havoc with my mind and put me here. Although I think its purpose is to bring all the hard stuff to the surface so that we deal with it rather than bury it away. I dont know....I hope its for the best...

Jadebear, I had the same thoughts! I was admitted for 3 days during a suicidal point last week. I got offered drugs but I refused and they were ok with that, I didnt get treatment though as it was for different reasons. All I can say is that I wish I had stayed a bit longer, it does give you...

So far I have been doing CBT, EMDR and things like mindfulness and relaxation to cope.

Kris I know what you mean. I really struggle with trust, I think its part of the whole PTSD thing. It took me a long time to build up trust with my T, but I do trust her now. When I was finally honest with her she put me to a psychatrist(which I really didnt want) and he made me agree to...

Jadebear I have felt suicidal after my sessions too. It just builds up in me after sessions and I get angry and depressed, to the point where I was hospitalised because I was taking my thoughts as fact and felt the need to act on them. Nothing seems to make me feel better, I cant even think...

Felix you are not alone. I feel like im a lost soul, I dont know who I am or what I want and have given up trying, for me its to do with the anxiety and fear, it sounds similar for you. People who havent been through traumatic experiences and who have never felt this way do not understand...

Thanks Iam and Tessa! I am always very careful what I say, I dont lie to people but I have become very good at avoiding saying things, which is really only lying to myself and I know thats not good. Im going to tell my T my reasons for emphasising the good and hiding the bad to get out. My T...

Good Luck Iam! Its not easy but I believe in you. You are a fantastic and strong person, even if you dont feel this, trust me you are!! Your replies to my posts have helped me imensely, im here because of your strength, so be good to yourself and chanel your strength into you! Love and best...

Thanks for all the comments guys, its always helpful to get other peoples input! Quick update, I saw my pshychologist and phsychiatrist on Tuesday. They made me agree to going into hospital. I was in for three days, it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be, although all I could focus on was...

Thanks Iam. I got through the weekend because of my friend, I owe her my life! Although its not gone away and im still thinking about it alot! My T is great and im begining to get a good bond with her. Although now im worried that they will think im attention seeking or something, and thats...

Seedling, thankyou for this thread. I thought I was on my own with this one! Its amazingly crazy that we are all going through such similar experiences. Hope things pick up for you, Take Care xx

I had EMDR on Wednesday, came out feeling angry at first, then low. Thursday I stayed in bed all day, then on Friday I was ready to kill myself. The thoughts were tormenting me all day, I knew they were wrong but they were starting to feel right. I emailed my T saying I didnt think I would be...

Thanks Iam, you are always so supportive. xx

I was doing EMDR today, Ive lost count of what session im on now but done quite alot for different areas of trauma. We are building up to harder stuff and things are at a fairly difficult stage now. So we done EMDR last week for this part and my SUDs were quite high and they stayed the same...