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Recent content by cinderellafaye

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    Walking on egg shells

    At the same time, I feel like the world's worst mom. I was shocked when it happened and feel like I didnt respond appropriately.
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    Walking on egg shells

    I just feel like I am over reacting and it isnt a big deal. First of all, it isnt a frequent occurence. Secondly, no one was physically hurt. But, at the same time, I dont want to harm my son.
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    Walking on egg shells

    So, my husband and I met in an eating disorder group and have both experienced trauma. He has anger issues and occasionally has outbursts. He has never laid a hand on me or our child, but can be violent towards objects. We have holes in our walls, etc, from his previous outbursts. The...
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    Childhood Question for women that have experienced csa

    I have been in such denial. The other day, I suddenly had an image of what might have been abuse and then the burning that always came after. I can remember just sitting on the toilet with the built up dread of the consequential pain of peeing.
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    Childhood Question for women that have experienced csa

    I am starting to put together the pieces of some of my past. Question: Could it burn to pee after childhood sexual abuse even in the absence of a UTI? I remember that after it happened, it would always burn a lot to pee for a while. It hurt so much that I would avoid peeing. Is that a...
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    Childhood Remembering csa

    @Sweetleaf I keep telling myself that it isnt a big deal and I just overreact. I really dont know what to make of things and understand what I do remember.
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    Childhood Remembering csa

    This has been a rough week. T is out of town on Spring Break and I remembered some stuff from my childhood that I wish I had not. I am trying to process it. When I think about it, I throw up. I had to leave work the other day because I kept having images of it and was vomiting. I feel like...
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    Spiraling

    DBT is not inherently a punishment. The way I was forced to do it was a consequence for bad behavior. Not sure if that makes sense.
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    Spiraling

    In my late teens, I had a severe eating disorder and went inpatient for several months. I was diagnosed with BPD. When I was "bad" there, my punishment was to do part of a DBT workbook. I just have bad associations with it that I dont think Incan get past.
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    Disclosure to people outside the medical sphere?

    I guess so. But, how do you know if is safe to do so?
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    Disclosure to people outside the medical sphere?

    Do you have someone to talk to who has similar experiences?
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    Disclosure to people outside the medical sphere?

    Besides medical professionals, do you disclose anything regarding your past (inlcuding present embodiment) to anyone other than medical professionals? I find this chat extremely helpful, but think that a 1-on-1 conversation with someone with similar experiences would be helpful (in persom or...
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    Current therapy state

    The new person I am seeing next week specializes in ED. I asked if she works with people with PTSD and can work with clients with trauma. I have a difficult finding a therapist that will treat someone with BPD.
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    Current therapy state

    My current therapist doesn't specialize in trauma. She also does not specialize in any of my other diagnoses. She actually specializes in children, which can be helpful because sometimes I have a difficult time talking about things. I don't think she wants me to have to repeat my trauma...
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    Childhood Found a way to stop trying to determine if what happened 'counted' as abuse?

    @Keen - Thank you so much for this post. It really resonates with me.
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