Spiraling

[cinderellafaye]

In my late teens, I had a severe eating disorder and went inpatient for several months. I was diagnosed with BPD. When I was "bad" there, my punishment was to do part of a DBT workbook. I just have bad associations with it that I dont think Incan get past.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

When I was "bad" there, my punishment was to do part of a DBT workbook.

How in the world can DBT be a punishment? I have the DBT workbook. I can't go to a class but I do the workbook alone and OMG is it helpful! I have BPD. DBT along with Seriquel XR 200mg has stablized me. I struggle to see how DBT can be used to punish. I'm not trying to invaildate you. I just don't understand how it can be used to punish is all.

 

[cinderellafaye]

DBT is not inherently a punishment. The way I was forced to do it was a consequence for bad behavior. Not sure if that makes sense.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

The way I was forced to do it was a consequence for bad behavior. Not sure if that makes sense.

It makes sense. So, you associate it with bad. Can you re-associate that in your mind? Maybe read a small bit at a time, advising yourself that it's good? Maybe read it with another good book and start to re-associate it with good things? Make yourself your favorite beverage or snack and really treat yourself when you do read it? I don't know if that sounds silly but that has helped me when things that aren't bad were associated bad by being punished with it. I switched it up and that helped to turn it around in my head.