Recent content by FabulousEnding

That is a very good point... one cannot cause the other. I found out it's genetic in only the women in my paternal side of the family. Oh goodie. So I was basically born with it like everyone else. I know it doesn't change facts... but it still has me wondering if I'm crazy. There's a...

I've been recently diagnosed by my trauma specialist counselor with Bipolar Disorder NOS. I can't say I'm surprised at all. I've been on a mood stabilizer for several months and its changed my life. I'm just wondering... Anyone know how the two disorders can affect each other? Or is Bipolar...

I try to keep the image in my mind of how proud I'll feel of myself knowing I stood up on my own two feet. That I left a bad situation, continued my education, took care of myself financially, etc. I'm having to pull myself up from the ground up but it'll be worth it soon. I like the idea of...

I recently left my very abusive and psychopathic boyfriend. It was hard as hell because we were so in love with each other, but I can't be with someone so disgustingly corrupt. I have my ESA cats and a few friends. However, I've learned I need to accept being alone in this world. I have no...

I got rejected for SSDI in a different state for a second time. :( They keep finding me significantly disabled but not disabled enough to keep me from working a minimum wage job... Ironic the SSDI payments are more than what I could make working full time at minimum wage. What kind of jobs...

My boyfriend ended up being passionate about the same program at college and signed up with me, so we put him in all the same classes with me. Technically, I can only take a dog into the lectures and not the lab rooms. Since my boyfriend is in class with me, the joke with us and one of my...

I have a philosophy with my boyfriend that I do what I can when I can. I'm terrible at cleaning and I'm too disabled to make money and what not. He's learned to be far more gentle, respectful and supportive with me, and in return I'm triggered significantly less. He does a physical job for a...

Ooh where did you get that hands free leash? I can imagine trying to hold onto a dog leash while grocery shopping takes a very well coordinated person... which I am now. :) Haha! Bristol is just so full of love to give. ;)

Have you seen the documentary "Through a Dog's Eyes" about physical service dogs? It was fascinating how these perfectly trained dogs would suddenly develop behavioral problems if they didn't only have eyes for their human. If the dog didn't feel a strong bond with the person, all their...

The abused dog they are bringing from TN, and the lady said she will temperament test her for me. Also said if she's not the right dog, she'll be happy to help me find one. Unfortunately, the two SD trainers I know are a pretty far drive away. She's narrowed it down to 3 different dogs...

That's what I thought. I asked a huge list of questions about what behaviors has she showed. They think because of my condition we'd probably bond more, and while her story really gets to me... I don't think I have the energy to work with those kind of behavioral issues. I need to be able to...

I'm having to "wash out" my little dog because she's getting too posessive and won't stop barking. A rescue contacted me about an abused and neglected dog who has been rehabilitated. Another SD trainer said she knows two dogs who are right for SD duty. The abused one has the saddest story...

I told my NPD mother about the topic of the flashbacks and all she had to say was "Sounds like you need to stay in therapy." Makes me think she knew and didn't give a shit. When I was 6 I had a bad dream and slept in the bed with my mom (just me and her), and I woke up with my dad lying next...

You're right, it is trust betrayal. I mean, sleeping in my bed is weird yes but the fear I feel during these episodes is beyond what I would think my reaction is... I dunno it's all so confusing. As far as my father goes, back in feb he told me he didn't love me and wanted nothing to do with...

My first real dissociative episode was about all of the awful things my father had said to me. Then, I got another really horrible one triggered by something small while laying in the dark in bed with my boyfriend. I thought my bf was my dad and I was in sexual danger, but 25% of me was still...