Recent content by FindingMyself88

I like the idea of this thread. I like that my T is willing to share personal stories of her own if it helps me. I like that she is VERY resourceful.

Thank you all for the kind words. It's been hard because 2 of my closest friends are going through some difficult times too so I don't want to reach out to them for support. Plus I just can't bring myself to share what I shared with my T with anyone else. I do see her Wednesday but then she will...

@NightSky thank you, so very true. I told my therapist that I was terrified to leave her office because I was afraid the processing wouldn't stop and then I wouldn't know how to handle it. So all I can do is try.

@NightSky I completely understand the part about not being able to be vulnerable. Crying isn't safe for me. I too have a hard time feeling my feelings. It's why I'm struggling so badly right now. Because I'm being forced to feel them. All I can say on that is trust the process and try to keep...

@ladee Thank you <3 I can see that it was a huge step even if the moment is very painful. Thanks for the reminder of hydration- I do have dysautonomia so dehydration definitely makes that worse.

So I am going to share things that both my current and my last T did/do for me that I find very helpful. I do 100% agree with @Friday about sharing what you wrote. Some of our most productive sessions have been when I took in something I wrote down but couldn't say. So she reads it and helps me...

So Thursday was probably the most difficult session I have ever had not only with my current T but over the past 5 years of therapy period. I finally shared some particular details about one of my traumas that I have never shared with anyone and it is the root of my shame and feelings. I know...

Due to being so far away from my therapist I won't actually SEE her again until July 6. Even if I could financially and physically make the 3 hour one way trips, she books out weeks in advance. Until this week I was doing so well... why did my mom have to insist on staying in THAT'S hotel? Just...

I do have calls and emails into my therapist. Sometimes she checks her emails at home and I'm praying she does this weekend. What I haven't emailed her I have wrote down. @anthony what I mean by manic I guess is some of the symptoms are similar as what someone gets when they are manic. As for...

My normal grounding skills are out the window because they aren't working because my normal crisis response is totally different. Normally I'm self harming or curled up in the corner unable to move and frozen in fear and suicidal. This is so far out in left field I don't even feel like it's me...

Not just now but 2 total today. Sorry I'm not very coherent between pain and racing thoughts.

I just need my mind to shut down and it won't. I've even taken 2 Valium now and it won't. My body is in excruciating pain levels I haven't reached in a long time. Like this is going to set me SEVERELY back health wise.

Definitely wasn't implying bi polar. Just saying it's a lot of manic symptoms. The two friends I've interacted with today know about my brain injuries very well and my ptsd and how both affect me and what my normals are and even what my not so normals are.

Ok so I'may not bi polar and I've never ever had a manic episode. Not saying this is one, just some very similar features. Gonna try to keep this short as possible. Starting from beginning. Wednesday I had therapy session. Now looking back we crammed wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too much into one 45 minute...

I haven't been around for a while because life has been hectic. I got accepted for disability in February and immediately started making plans to move from Alabama to Colorado. I have a friend that I will roommate with to make finances a little easier. I am so looking forward to the move in 57...