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I have been trying to stay grounded using the apps and CDs I have utilised before however I'm too irritable and anxious. A pre-existing medical condition cancels out driving for a few more months not that I'm too concerned about that because if I could stay home all the time I would but I know...

I'm not sure when they're back but I have rang and left a message.

They're away on holidays. This is the first time they've both been away at the same time. They are my backup plan. Nothing was really set up for plan B because I've been travelling better of late

Yes I am scout86 I'm seeing a psychologist and also doing exposure therapy with a trained counsellor (I became agoraphobic after my assault) but because of the holidays I don't have an appointment with anyone til mid January. I'm really struggling atm. I know how bad and dark it can get and I'm...

I'm sorry to hear what u have been through. My assault was two and a half yrs ago and some days I feel like I'm simply treading water. However I do have more good days then bad ones now. It takes as long as it takes. I know that's not what u want to hear but there is no time frame on this type...

ok I haven't been on here in a while and atm I don't feel as though I have anyone to turn to except here, so I need to vent and ask for others advice. A little over two years ago I was sexually assaulted while out jogging. From a combination of this and early childhood abuse I was struggling to...

Hi @Catlovers141 , I'm sorry you are feeling all this at the moment. I don't really have anything helpful to say, believe me I wish I did. I just wanted to say you're not alone, I'm actually am in a very similar situation. Congratulations on graduating and I admire the work you do. My memories...

All round feeling very alone in this stupid trauma struggle. have to keep myself occupied and distracted to help ward off SI or more so acting on it. I'm worried what will happen when I stop ;( I do have a good support team, or so I thought. My T hasn't replied to my last three emails (she's...

Thanks for all your replies. It's good to know I'm not alone.

Ok... so I had a rough session in therapy today, I was physically and emotionally drained. went home and fell asleep. I dreamt my T turned up at my house during what I refer to as crazy hour ( that time of day when it's all systems go, dinner bath and bed for my kids) She sat and talked while...

I'm never generally open I'm a closed book. But there has been 3 other serious sexual assaults in my area since mine but they've all been caught. I know that's a good thing that they've been caught but it makes me feel like I've done something wrong or haven't done enough to help catch the sick...

Thank you everyone for sharing it really helps. Sorry at a loss for words right now.

Thank you @FindingMyself88 soooo much for your reply. I feel like I'm going crazy! Logically I know I need to talk but physically have problems with it. I too am sorry you've been through what you have it really is the worst experience. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I think I might email...

So I feel like I'm playing a tug of war with my own brain. As I have mentioned in previous post I was sexually assaulted last year, the police were involved but much to my disgust the 'person' who attacked me has not yet been caught :( as a result of my forensic testing there is DNA if he is...

*Trigger Warning* Ok, so a little background to help with my question(s). I grew up knowing I was different. I wasn't like most kids I knew, I was a "foster kid". I went back and forth between my bio parents and foster parents between the ages of 18 months and 2 1/2 yrs. my bio parents were...