Recent content by I wish

You wouldn't be able to tell that I have a care in the world by looking at me. Part of how I coped in the beginning was by paying excessive attention to my appearance. It was a way to feel in control, hide my pain and to be ready for anything 24/7. If I didn't keep myself perfectly groomed I'd...

I am startled by doorbell or knocking on door, phone ringing, Police cars.

I started self harm as a middle-aged adult. I burn my forearm. I would do it when my feelings of sadness were overwhelming. I don't think it's a terrible thing to do. It's a somewhat effective coping mechanism. I haven't done it in 3 months and hope I won't ever again. My husband gets...

I think that my ptsd was made a million times worse just by the fact that authority figures. ..police and doctors...did nothing to protect me...for years. I was mentally and physically abused by a minor..at first I wasn't believed because I was the adult..and my abuser acted like a victim when...