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@Simply Simon I think you’re absolutely right in saying that this will keep happening to some degree. Which sucks big time in all honesty. But I’ve had so many moments in this journey where I thought ‘FOR F***K SAKE, I am doing everything by the book, the reading, the inner work, the boundaries...

@ladee, I am so so so deeply sorry. So deeply sorry for your loss. I cannot even comprehend. It is not something a parent should ever have to go through, ever. I lost my daughter two years ago, albeit different circumstances but the grief we share. Life has very much not been the same since. I...

Thank you both for taking the time to communicate with me. Progress definitely has been made and I recognise that, at least on a better day. But the set back... it feels as though I have taken 2 steps toward and 10 steps back! PTSD is definitely one hell of a disease, I often call it a ‘life...

Hi all, It’s been a little while. A little while of a lot of self work, revelations, further adaptation to triggers, symptoms, sleepless nights.. And just as things were getting ‘good’ life has once more fallen apart in its entirety. I once more find myself in a place whereby I must rebuild...

It’s a brilliant example you have used there. I really do feel like sometimes like post-trauma is a whole new discovery. Actually, post trauma my life shifted in such a way that I no longer recognised who I am or any part of my life, none of it made sense. I HAD to re-learn everything from...

Can relate to every single word. Although in my experience I have learned that there are people who have heartlessly and consciously ruined another and they walk the world freely with no remorse

I hope you are feeling better. Boundaries can be difficult. Setting boundaries is definitely a big one for me too. I’ve always been somewhat a people pleaser, it has always been natural to me although prior to my trauma and PTSD it wasn’t half as draining as it is now. Now every time I say yes...

I often cry about it, the unfairness of it all. My brain just cannot comprehend how the trauma happened - but the aftermath of it all.. the PTSD... it feels like a life sentence. And I definitely cry about it and the person I have become.

That actually makes perfect sense. Because I often find myself pondering what I may have done in my life to have then deserved this all as a result.. and I can never find anything that would justify any of this. I guess I can’t help but ask myself why... But I see why your therapist had said...

Often... although unfortunately I still have access to my abusers lives and I can tell you that they have not been affected not one bit. Nor are they remorseful. It just goes to show there are some really evil people walking our world freely...

I did this EXACT thing for months on end directly after my trauma. I lost who I was completely and with that I lost all sense of self and couldn’t comprehend who I was or why I did the things I did. I just couldn’t understand. With time, my patterns of behaviour became clearer, as did my...

Today I survived my second trigger date. Once I got up off of the bathroom floor from a crying session, I looked at myself in the mirror and I didn’t recognise myself at all. My eyes, they’re different. And not for the obvious reason, crying. They just look empty. Like there isn’t a soul behind...

Mine is - what have I done in my 26 years of life to deserve any of this? It is a mind bugging question I really want to know the answer to.

Evening all, Apologies once again for going absolutely awol! That seems to be the only thing I’m good at nowadays. I’m pleased to say that I have 15 minutes left and this day is over, I have officially survived the second anniversary of one of my biggest trigger dates liked to my trauma. It...

You have no clue how much your words resonate with me!! I have done everything (bar medication) that they say will get you ‘better’ on paper so why the hell am I stuck in this nightmare still?! It’s extremely frustrating because the whole thing feels like a rollercoaster ride. I wake up...